梦游记

Life is Dream Walking; I dream Walking in my LIFE^^

静静的……


静静的
以为心已经找到了
沉默的理由
不再为任何关于你的情事物
喜怒哀乐

静静的
认为没有你的自己
还是自己
就像不曾心动过


静静的
告诉自己
一切都已经过去了
虽无法重来
却也不能继续

静静的
听见你的声音
仿佛世界只有你的存在
曾以为安静的湖面
又泛起涟漪

静静的
就像窗外的雨滴
规则的旋律
“滴答、滴答……”
再怎么不想去承认
也无法欺骗自己
原来
我还没有释怀

静静的
才发现思念
在看见你以后
已慢慢涌上心头
只是
再多的话
也只能卡在心口
默默的
说给自己听

静静的,
静静的……
静静的?

它,
能静静的……吗?

静静的,
消失在我的
左边胸口……

静静的,
保存在心底
不让任何人晓得……

decision after several thoughts

After long discussions with friends and thoughts,I had finally made up my mind on where am I going to study.
Before this,I was quite confused and I really couldnt decide where should I go,there is just too much for me to think and relate to.
My papa asked me to go back to Kuching to study in my last call to them,as there are alot of reasons to say.hahaha.
Part of the reasons are:
1.my friends and family are all there,and as if I am studying there,I will not have to miss them and I can meet them whenever I want.hahaha.
2.i can save alot of expenses as I do not have to pay for the house or room rental,catering fees,transport fee and even air ticket!hahaha...bla bla bla...can save so much as all my expenses will be offered by my parents.hahaha
3.If I study in Kuching,I can still learn some of my interests that I did not realised when I was in secondary school,like I can learn dancing,knitting,swimming,etc,as I am now have money to support myself to do that without burden my parents.
4. I can learn driving and get my liscence!hahaha,so hopefully you can see I drive soon.
5.If I am in Kuching then I can continue to get medicine from my doctor without have to ask my parents to post it to me or by other means.who knows,I will be cured one day.hahaha
6.I also can find some part time job at Kuching too as I am familiar with the place so I wont have to crack into the new environment and adapt to it.hahaha
7. xxx ( i think still have some more but I cant remember it)hehehe
see,there are so many reasons I should stay home!hahaha
there are only 2 things I can think of about the "disavantage" if I live in Kuching,hahaha
1. I cannot continue with my modeling job as it is very limited in sarawak but if I stay in kl there are much more choices on the jobs;
2.i cant get any experience on living in other place >.<
hahaha.so,PROs are more than CONs.

So,as I think that is possible for me to go back to study,I am now narrowing my choices to either going to INTI college or SEGI college in Kuching.
For INTI college,I will choose the A-Level program before I persue to Psychology course,the intake is july;
for SEGI college,I will choose the American Degree Program in Psychology intake in august,as I can still transfer to other university and whats more,I can even go to Australia,my dream place! hahaha.
So,where am I going?mostly SEGI liao~hehehe.
but what dismay me is not much people know about the ADP,though it is now beginning to rapid grow among the universities in Malaysia.By the way,I think I can do it! hehehe.so,wish me luck yea!hahaha
this is the link on what am I going to study,interested?go and have a look then.hahaha
http://www.segi.edu.my/campus/scs/programmes.htm
for this,I would like to show my appreciation to some of my friends who helped me alot:
1.Shirlene Liew for helping me to look for the info of INTI;
2.Kelly Wong for clearing my doubts during my miserable moment;
3.Shane Ten for giving me info on the ADP and lots of useful informations;
4.Winnie Lim who always help me when I said I want to study in HELP,(really feel sorry for putting her "aeroplane" at last)
5.there are much more who help in minor like Jane,Ching foong and Da Ge Ge.
thanks to all of you.hehehe
THANK YOU VERY  MUCH
thats all from me for now,I really have think it twice and wish I can really get what I want.
Good luck to all.
gambate!

you are nice,but you are not Mine ...

Once
u treated me nice
i cut my finger
terrified by the worm,
it was u
doing the rest of things for me;

Once
i was always not tall enough to reach the rack,
it was u
who put down all the things in hands
and got the tub I needed for me;
i shall never forget
your pretended-blaming-expression
when the water dipped out from the tub
and wet your shirt
the sincere and kiddy expression
that warmed my heart;

once
i was stubborn;
it was you
fighting with me
by using our eyes
---> o.O vs O.o "
maybe that was the moment
I was electrocuted by you
it was so funny
when I thinking of this
but it was you
who make me think I worth a live
because I still can fight;

once
i was scalded by the boiling soup,
it was you
first to ridicuole me
as in I was kidding
but after seeing the painfulness in my eyes
u were more to caring
and hold my hands
to see the scald;
I would never forget that moment
A beloved man showing his caring
though I am not his love...

once
i was broken heart
it was you
throwing my love
into pieces
with your silentness
and the explaination in your eyes;

once
i was thinking,
it was you
who make me felt love and loved
but it was just my imagination;
perhaps
it was me
growing all the doubtness
that pushing you furthur from me
until losing all the happiness we used to have;
until the awkward feeling filled the atmosphere around us;
it was u
who woke me up
that i am not suitable to love
but loved;

there are always some memories between us
that I shall not forget
for the rest of my life
the valuable treasure
which keeps inside my secret closet
forever...
I will always rememeber
there was a guy,
who ever brighten my day with a simple "bye bye";

the guy,
who is nice,
but not MINE...