my recent life

it has been half a year since my last post. Time just fly off in a blink of eye. wow~ many things happened yet most of them were solved. I guessed? hahaha
recently is very busy with my assignment, plus the unlucky angel is flying on top of my head, I have to rush for my assignments as my laptop would die very soon! urggghhh~
things had been spoiled and broken since few weeks ago... my pocket is getting drier and drier... Have I finished my good luck? or somebody is cursing me at the back? hahaha. even my ring can get broken, how lucky I am, huh？ >.<
anyway, life still goes on, and I am waiting for some day to come, some big and significant day for me... I just hope everything goes smoothly and I know somebody will be there for me ^^ hehehe.
there were some events happening like the 30 hour famine camp, dreamers and prom night... and we manage to sponsor a child from Myanmar, happyING^^
will post these events on as soon as possible, hahaha. life is getting toucher and i am a bit worried...
what is my future???
be happy and cheer!
good luck and have a nice day!

21st birthday celebration

My birthday is on 13th of March but I celebrated early because it is more convenient and most people are free on weekend ba~ hehehe. Anyway, the plan had started a week before that. I was searching for the cake and planned what dishes to cook on that big day! It was quite fun but there were minor disagreements along. however, everything went on smoothly. except for I was quite tiring going out and coming back for times.

On Sunday night, I dressed up earlier and waited for guests. I was actually expecting to start the feast on 7 but it ended up we started at 7.30pm. ha! mummy cooked alone at kitchen. that's the reason.

well, nothing much can do because that was a large group of people and my place is limited. anyway, we had BBQ! hahaha.

I couldn't imagine there were so many people coming than I expected. hmmm. Facebook event invitation doesn't really help much. hahaha.

we talked, we ate and we took photos!!!!!!!

this is my college mates, ADP! yeah! a lot of them coming, shocked me. hahaha. Some of them had just come back from Korea in the morning and at night they came to my party, how touched~ =')

hahaha. they brought my party joyfulness~ THANK YOU EVERYONE!

this is my stampin friends. hmmm, not many can come as a lot are 'outstationed'. hahaha. even my mushrooms cannot attend. a bit disappointed la, but they wished me and love me as usual, I know it! hahaha. :p 

 and this is my birthday cake. chocolate cake weighed 2kg. I was quite disappointed with it but many of my friends said it is nice =.=///

 and this is me, when they sang birthday song for me. awww~ first time in my life there were so many people singing birthday song for me. hahaha. TOUCHED~~~

 and this was me, granting for 3 wishes. hahaha. secrets, cannot be told^^

 and this is my family! but younger sister was not here as she is still in NS. anyway, to let her to feel the merriness, I bought her a small cake in the morning when we visited her at the temple.

 this is a photo with my ex-boss, Madam Cecelia. Felt so happy she could come. She is one of the most important people in my life who helped me a lot.^^ thank you~ and the three girls are her lovely daughters.^^

and this is natasha, My college good friend.^^

 these were the presents and angpaus I got, hehehe. So many and I love all of them! hahaha. thank you for picking such nice gifts for me!!!

 this is from Elina, Claudia, Moi and Natasha. wow, I was surprised when I opened it! hahaha. I just thought of buying nail polishers and they bought me already^^ thanks girls!

and this is my KEY!!! mummy, dad and sis bought it for me. after my request! though mummy always said no need but at last she still bought it for me. hehehe. and cook all the nice dishes for us. thanks^^ <3 you!

and this bag,hahaha, Love it! greenish blue! lalala. i don have to buy bag liao^^ thanks Nina and Jasmine

 

and this is from mushrooms! chocolate! my addiction! hahaha thanks Hui and Foong even though Foong couldn't attend. ^^ <3 <3 <3

and this is from Darling jane. Maybe we are too closed until she knew I always headache? so she gave me this... this is not mask, it is for headache. COOL~ hahaha

there are still a lot of presents but I couldn't mention it all here. I love them all, OK? no bias! hahaha.

thanks a lot for spending time with me on the party and sorry for anything that is unsatisfied.

THANK YOU and much APPRECIATION from me!!!

after all, it was a great night for me, in spite of my painful mouth and the alcohol allergy. hahaha.

thanks everyone for putting effort to come and my family who helped to clean and cook and everything.

Love you all!!!

21 years old, a new beginning, 

a more mature me.^^

jia you 

good luck!!!

Because you live, I live

It has been more than two months
it had been very joyful months and thanks to you
my love
missing and loving are worthwhile
when you are not around
for we are still holding our hearts closed

I have been waiting and looking for an answer

for who would be the one stay

somehow

somewhere

I know what I didn't know

upon loving you

♬ Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky  ♫

I am so glad I found an angel

someone who loves and cares for me

someone who is here when the world stumbled me

Thank you for being here

please take care when I am not around

remember to enjoy your life and please,

be safe.

I am waiting for you to come back

and give me a big warm hug

<3 you

2012 New Year Visiting

 Chinese New Year 2013 fell on 23rd of January. when I am posting this, it is already Chap Goh Mei. hahaha.
This year began with challenging circumstances yet there were some memorable events happening on me too. hehehe. New year, everything is never the same anymore. I am growing ^^
This new year was quite different in a way that some friends came over for more than 5 times in a week. you know who you are.hahaha.
the first day of CNY always boring as I stayed home. anyway, this was the first time in this new house (because we just moved in ba~) hahaha.
the next few days I was not at home anymore, followed friends for visitings and out for supper at night bla bla bla... it was very surprising that this year most friends could gather together to go visiting. felt like I was going back to secondary school again, with my lovely secondary school mates^^ and it is a good thing for all of us still in contact with each others, it had been 3 years anyway!!! ha!
below are some of the pictures taken in different friends' houses.

this one was taken at Li Xian's house. she looked more like a waitress that day, busy like a buzz buzz bee.hahaha

after that we went to 3rd mushroom aka Ching Foong's house. and the guys were really =.= and we looked like taking family photo didn't we? hahaha. and someone face so thick, asked for a photo shot with Foong's brother. hahaha.

then we still went to Puan Phang's and some other friends' house, too tired to take photos anymore.

however, the next day, we continued for 2nd round visiting. ha! this time only went to Yun and Jane's house. hahaha.

see what stupid thing we did.lalala

taken in Yun's room. hahaha. 

kept thinking what pose we had.lalala

see, we are so creative.

from the left, don't talk, don't hear, don't want, don't smell and don't see. hahaha

dragon year, of course had to take picture with some related thing la~ seriously, i don't know why Yun laughed so happily.hahaha

and it is me! in the dragon year!

and the next day, I went for class gathering at Sharing Planet. hahaha. around half of class joined, so happy to meet some of the old friends. see, we are all grown up and be more prettier and handsome. thanks for crossing my life and shared the memories.

 now, CNY had officially ended after tonight, no more CNY mood! ha! Wish all of us a happy year and all the best!
good luck!
gambate!

When Life Moves On...

there has been such a long time since my last update. Awww~ Life is busy, busy and busy.hahaha. what to do, I love it^^
Going to move my house that I had been living for 20 years for my life. it is fantastic, but it is saddening too. 20 years is not a short period. hahaha. By the way, I would have my own room, FINALLY! hahaha we are all excited for it!
Going back to my work, it goes on well. It is not tiring like the other jobs I worked on before. well, after all, I am the boss, so of course, I always make it working efficiently. By the way, I just hope that it goes smoothly as I wished. hahaha. it is not hard, perhaps?
Then, it is ASSIGNMENTSSS time! hahaha. 6 subjects are not a torture to me, I know I can cope with it. They only make my life fuller and busier. hahaha. I try to manage my time well as usual, so that I would not waste any single second. lalala. it works, sometimes. hehehe. Wish me luck in my studies. ^^
after all, this is just a random post about my present life. it is fun! hahaha. meet some new friends and people, get to know more and understand more, get to be MORE mature( i think I am mature, anyway?so I want to be more mature).hahaha. just when I am writing until here, there is a disruption in front of me. hahaha. don't want to tell what is that. what I can say is, First Impression Really Doesn't Work!!! so I gonna change it. lalala. tomorrow going to be Prom Night, and this is the first time I join this kind of event since I entered this college, well, it has been only one year ba~ hahaha.
when life moves on, I am going forward as well, don't want to think back those good and bad memories, I am who I am now, and I treasure my this moment now. hahaha.
So, Lalala, Keep going people!
Good luck to all of us who striving for lives!
Gambate!

Arrival of WilBer Pan in Kuching 20.08.11

After the long waiting, Wilber finally came to Kuching! I had been cracking my neck long for this! This is so unbelievable that I had actually won the VIP tickets and his album through the caller ringtone contest. hahaha. Amazing right!? not really many people got it.hahaha. I made my flight back from Singapore earlier too just to see hiM! OMX~ I am very idiot when talk about him. It's all about him him him! Because I am Crazy over U U U U U! Wilber Pan!

He would not know me, forever, perhaps~ But I had admired him for more than 8 years, and I never change my love to him, nothing can change it, though.hahaha. A lot of people thought that I admire him because of his look. and now what? I clarify here, I like him because of his influence in my life.

'what influence?'

curious leh~ hahaha.

There was a time, I lost my direction, and became very aggresive. I did not remember how I met him, if I am not mistaken, it was his song, Bi Hu Man Bu, "lizard strolling". The rhythm was relaxing.After that, I started to search for his songs. I found most of his songs are very inpiring and motivating,  they make me feel a lot better and much more directed. And even he injured his knee, he never gave up, but he kept practising and made himself a better him. I see a WILL in him, is that why he called himself Will instead of Wilber? hehehe. I don't know. I saw the WILL to change for the sake of a better me as well. I learnt to put in more effort in order to achieve my dream, regardless how people judge me.
My heart is locked since that day, just for him. Maybe Wilber would never know who I am, what did he do which have motivated me, but I cannot doubt the changes he brought to the inner me. I really appreciate it. Hereby, I would like to thank you, Wilber.  You show a positive attitude to us!

THANK YOU AND I WILL SUPPORT YOU FOREVER!

Even if the whole world is agaisnt you, I would still standing at a small corner, watching you, supporting you! You have my & my <3 forever.

Jia you!

the album and tickets!hehehe

I was very surprised when Wan Wai Fun and Royce called me.hahaha.

i got this sticker when I went in the VIP zone.

hehehe. During the day, I was actually late. By the time I reached there, there was already crowded. Luckily mine was VIP seats, then I had a seat, and with me I could bring a friend, and the lucky friend was, Natasha! hahaha. she was very excited as well, lalala. we waited for around 2hours, and Wilber came at around 8.30pm. all of us were nervous.hahaha.

when we came to the back stage, I finally saw him! he was in black suit and was wearing spectacle. I shook his hand, *happy~ This was the first time I saw him, with just a few feet distance. so Unbelievable! 

He is fair, tall and sunny^^ I think no one can beat him! most of the people certainly will look back if he walk passed them. He is impressive. With just one look, and never would be forgotten. ^^

After that, he went out and straight away sang and danced for two songs. the scene was flooded with screams. He easily made the scene hot!

he danced and sang for the first two songs. COOL~

then, he sang xiao xiao ma yi. nice voice.

I envy Amelyn a lot as she could talked to him in such a close distance. So nice~ I think my super idol must be very tired, because he looked tired, and he kept wiping his sweats. so heartbroken to see this. Nevermind, this was his final place before going back to Taiwan. Get a good rest before you going on, OK? Don't make yourself sick because we will worry.

* I overheard somebody behind me said that if they can get the towel they would frame it.hehehe. Who wouldn't? 

below are some pictures of him in the concert. All look handsome and cool.hahaha

He is cute, too. During the concert there was a part that he played a dancing game with fans. He dropped he bear to give to the winner. then, he showed us a very panic and very innocent look. So cute! he opened his jaw wide, showing his surprise. hahaha. He suddenly picked up the bear and kissed it! Awww! so glad for the girl who won it! hahaha. He is such a lovely big boy.

he waves to the audience.

don't remember what song is this. hehehe

Overall, he sang six songs, including 'quan mian tong qi, chu dong', 'xiao xiao ma yi','U U U', 'wo men dou pa tong' and 'Bu de bu ai' . He is great at both slow and fast songs. this is so wonderful! He sang the last song with the audience. Terrific! hahaha. during the session, he went down to shake hands with the audience too!

lastly, I went up for the album signing session. I actually have something to ask and to tell, but I have no chance because it was too quick. so disappointed. By the way, one thing that made me a bit happier was that he looked at me, and then smile at me. My sister said this was very ordinary because this is out of politeness. But his glimpse and smile means a lot for me, even though he doesn't know me. I still feel glad. It's my pleasure to meet him. But I forgot to say Happy birthday to him. What a dismay~

 

this is the album with his signature. I shook his left hand. hahaha. two times in a day, I am sure I made people envious and they would kill me of they see me. lalala

well, after all, it was a nice concert, even though the time is short. He promised he would come Kuching again! hahaha. I am awaiting! 

really thank you, Wilber, thank you for coming, and thank you for arriving in my life. thanks for making an important mark in my heart, leaving the foot marks in my life. Thank you, for you are my role model, for you are the one who motivates me. Thanks. Forever support from me^^

Take care.

Have a nice day.

Famine 30, Inti College 6-7/8/2011

Mother Theresa said: “We can not do great things. We can only do little things with great love."

I always hope that I can do little meaningful things with my overflowed love. and here they gave me the chance. I participated in Famine 30, which was hold at Inti College Sarawak, from Saturday to Sunday.

I’ve seen so many photos and videos on how the children suffered, yet, I never know that there are over half of the children in the world are actually suffering from poverty, famine and 1 child DIED in every 3 SECONDS! !! Can you believe this? OMX! There are over 2 billions of children who still need our care! I am extremely frustrated after I got to know the statistic from the participation of Famine 30 as a volunteer. 

How I wish I could hold them in my arms, even though my arms are not wide enough, they are strong. How I wish I am able to cover and protect these innocent angles from sufferings. 

I know, and I assure, someday in the future, I am going to help at my greatest effort and I wish I could influence people by awaking them from the world of materialism. And I swear, I will limit the expenses on junk food and I will always think twice when buying something unnecessary. ( you know la, girls ba~ love to waste $$$~)hahaha. 

Actually I had already planned to sponsor a child at the end of this year. And AHA! I know where I should start now. Hahaha. And I add a wish list to my 2015-> sponsor at least 3 children at the year! Lalala. Wish me luck so that I can earn many $$$~

There are people who want the simplest needs, but they couldn’t get it. Food, clean water, shelter… seems so simple to us; we can get it in a grab of hand. That is why; we take it for granted all the times! How about the poor countries? The children do not have enough food. I read an article and found that people from some part of Africa do not have food, so they have no choice but to eat cow dung to deliver medicine for AIDS. However, you see what happen around us… unfinished food are everywhere if you eat outside, because there are always people who don’t know how lucky they are to have food to eat. I doubt I would do this, because I always finish the food in my plates; and I still feel guilty that I did not finished the fried rice few weeks ago. I am also glad that there are people doing and feeling the same. One of the volunteer, Zhi Cheng did not waste the seaweed fried rice in the party and he packed it back for tomorrow’s breakfast? Whatever. The most important thing is there are people who are conscious about do not wasting food! Hahaha. Thanks.

Same goes to water source. There are people who drink, wash and bath in dirty muggy water; and us? We have more than enough water sources, therefore, people can turn on the pipe and let the water flows like that? Sometimes I really feel like throwing them the photos on people who live and use in a dirty environment and prompt to get diseases. I think we do not deserve that much and I think someone on top there also see the same, so there are disasters happening around us. That is a warning! But nobody takes it. They still indulge in their own world which full of unnecessary luxuries. Why? Why at the same time, there are people who couldn’t afford the simplest requirement, they don’t have house, not even to have a mosquito net. I never wonder that a net like this can help those kids from deadly diseases and illness. I watched the video on how the kids moaning and just passed away like that. My tears flow down, finally, after several times of controlling. The tears of guilty, which make me feel more sad. The cheap cheap net that we not even bother to use! And it means so much for others! How sad! So damn it! And I never know it!

The children just opt for the simplest things, yet they do not have it; and these simplest things are all what we take for granted! We never realize that there are people who try very hard to get all these when we just simply waste them away. We just… NEVER, NEVER THINK! We are sticking to our comfortable lives, nice room and soft bed; NEVER awake and keep complaining. We NEVER know how our lousy things matter to others, so we keep complaining how bad they are. The reasons are, we never sleep on floors, we never live in expose environment, we never drink dirty water and we never get hungry. All we always do is… COMPLAINING! Arrggghhh! How bad I am when I think back. I have such a nice life, I do not have to drink dirty water, and throw away the water which is a little dirty; I do not get hungry at all because there are always food available for me. My papa even disagreed for me to participate in this event because I have to starve myself! After a little struggling, he finally allowed and see, I made it! 30 hours was really hard to go. The time was just too slow to pass and my stomach was grumbling. My friend asked me: “why you don’t want to eat?” I just smiled. In my little world, I tell myself, ‘don’t get attracted, you want to feel how the kids suffer, isn’t that the purpose you are here?’ and now, I know how uneasy is the feel of hungry. My hunger was for 30 hours only, but how about the kids? Their hungers are continuing and they never get to get their stomach a little full. If you don’t believe me, skip a meal for yourself and see how it feels like. If you realize something, congratulations!

All we have should not be taken for granted anymore. I want to make myself a limitation card, to limit my expenses so that I would have enough money to sponsor 2 children in the end of 2012. Well, I eat too much junk food and it is fattening and no vitamins. Also, my money goes more to my studies expenses so I have to be thriftier in order to gather RM1200! It should not be a problem, since I work, huh? Hahaha. Who want to join me for sponsorship also can contact me. Hehehe. Wish me luck!

I wrote some notes for this post at some free times, then everyone thought I was writing diary. My gosh~ who will write diary in the morning!? hahaha. then, a volunteer asked me what keep my enthusiasm for writing blog. I told him part of the reasons--> to share knowledge & experiences so to influence other;besides, also to enhance my writing skills so that it would not rusted. :p one reason that I did not tell him is that: I write my articles to earn money.hehehe.

during the camp, I was really appreciating those participants who still had smiles on their faces. whenever they saw others, they would smile to them. this give me dedication to move on; unlike some of them, I rarely saw them smile. Was it because of tiredness? I do not know. All I know is I was trying hard to smile too! If you know how much people would value your smiles, especially tiredness and strangeness powered over excitement and enthusiasm, you would do the same as well. I think there is nobody who does not want others to smile to them, right? hahaha

I really feel grateful to Ysin and the camp leader, Wyndie, who allowed me to join at the very last minute! Besides, thanks to Famine 30, I was able to learn and realize so much and met so many friends. I know a little bit on how to organize this camp and so, I add a new wish to my 2012 wish list  organizing a DIY camp in my college targeting 100 people participating! Hahaha Big aim? I am not sure. But I know I can handle it^^

After the camp finished,(Yeah! We MADE it!) We went to Legend for dinner. They celebrated an early birthday for Wyndie, our camp leader. Happy birthday to you! Hahaha, you are born the same day with my sister! Hehehe. Here are some photos of the events, hope to see more people next year! Jia you!

this is my ID for being a volunteer

my T-shirt for famine 30

these are the companies who sponsored the camp. thanks for your support! ^^

she looks cool, right?^^

this is Ysin, the leader for volunteer, she is great and cool, especially in entertaining and making the scene hot~ thanks~

this is Wyndie Chai, Our camp leader. she is a nice lady and today is her birthday! Happy birthday to you!

special thanks to this two ladies because if not of them, I would not be able to join the camp. so thanks again!

Irene as doctor, Linda and Kevin as delivery doctors, ah fen as registration clerk.

for the first game, my group role played as hospital staffs and see, what is our hospital's name.hahaha

ah fen is a staff at registration counter, I helped her in case there would be a crowd. hahaha.

who am I? I am a doctor who gave speech. hahaha. and I switched my venue for 3 times. -.-!!! 

people kept coming to buy supplements and for injections.hahaha. if not, they would probably dead, and go to the... 

tomb! hahaha

during the night, there were many groups of performers performed for us. all were really great, especially the last group, Dream Machine, where all the campers and volunteers had fun together,it was very memorable.^^

 at the second day, after the aerobic exercise, the participants performed drama. a lot of us were touched by the 'children' group, even their drama was simple, it was the clearest message I had received among the other dramas. A lot of children RIP because of a lack of basis requirements.

this group of drama was funny! the 'delivery aunty' who lacked of professional skills killed a lot of infants. this drama was to awake people the need of knowledge about delivery skills.

paying attention on the drama.

this is Phit Fen, the only one I know when I first came here. hahaha. she is not sick, ok? she is very kind and always do good deeds. she is such a lovely girl.~ 

found this picture randomly. the only kid in the camp (left), with the volunteer(Melvin Chai). they like to stick together, I wonder why~ hahaha. they look a bit alike, isn't it? 

this is a pic taken with MyFM DJ. hehehe.nice la~also, this is the group photo. 

this is the sign language. at last, we made a 30 sign signified famine 30! it was a bit hard to instruct but the end product is nice!

 and finally, it's me! beside me is Denise, a new friend^^ we were leading the participants to the hall.

after the event, we went to Legend to have our dinner. they celebrated wyndie's birthday as well. hehehe. Happy birthday to you!and thanks for the treat! it was so great to meet all of you! from left, tate, Qi Wen ( the girl who takes nice photos), Kelly (the girl who looks like me^^), Terence Lee, Raymond, Ysin, Wyndie, Irene, Jamie, HanPerng, Flo Kee, Ee Hsia, zhi Cheng, Melvin, Amelia, Hanee, Doris, Fen and some more (paiseh don't know what is your name *-*)

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Lastly,(finally~ hahaha. This is a really long post.) I want to change myself. AGAIN? Hahaha. Yup! For the sake for a better me and the beloved children. I will always say: “I DO!”

How about you? Do you think the same?

Anyway, Good Luck!

Jia you.