我还在，我相信你也一样

兜兜转转，又回到这里……
有些事情，不敢告诉你，也不想别人知道我的不安，
或许，只能来这里了。
也许这里是唯一一个你不会来的地方，
也许是你不在了，我的安全感也随之而去；
也许，就算你来了，你也不会查看或明白我到底写了什么；
也许，是担心你读了会生气，所以选了一个你不明白的语言为媒介；
也许，你懂了，反而会怪我不相信你不了解你然后对我生气质问……
我不是故意的，只是太担心了。
你一个人离家而去，我摸不着看不到，看不到你过得好不好……
我过多的关怀和担忧，有时确实让我自己很讨厌自己。

你总是说我不相信你，其实你知道吗？
我相信你，但是我还是会害怕……
害怕你在那里学了很多东西，嫌我知识浅；
害怕你在那里开阔了视野，嫌我什么都不懂；
害怕你什么都不告诉我，嫌我碍手碍脚越帮越忙；
害怕你因为我过多的担心和关心，嫌我烦；
害怕你在外经历了不一样的事情，嫌我们文化变得不同了；
害怕你因为我们遭遇经历不同，对我不理不睬；
害怕得不敢和你吵，默默地吞下不安和委屈……

你常要我自己去找答案要我去探索，而我每每做错搞错弄错；
因为我不明白，为何你可以为别人学习语言为单词查字典，
而对我却呼呼喝喝说我写了些你不懂的东西……
你不知道，我为了踏上你的脚步而向你的方向奔跑；
跌跌撞撞，却总是以争执收场……
我多么希望你会哄哄我，说你爱我。
可是你总会说是我的不是，错在于我。
我只是希望我们意见不合时，你让着我，说你在乎我爱我……
但是，你最终都会选择避开，把我留在吵架的空间遐想徘徊，把问题扔给我一个人独自面对。
第二天，你又从新reset,像完全没有事情那样，我做不到，因为我的心还是疼着……
其实我也试过让着你迁就你，可是你从来都不会吃这一套，
对你来说，我错了，所以不可原谅；所以你生气；
直到我的眼泪不听话的流下来，你才惊觉，我真的受伤了。

我们的爱，到底怎么了……
我好怀念你专心和我对话的样子；
我好想念你不停的说爱我的作怪模样；
我好想再看到你依依不舍不挂电话的眷恋；
我好希望你会了解，我只希望你一切安好。
我相信你会很好的。

my recent life

it has been half a year since my last post. Time just fly off in a blink of eye. wow~ many things happened yet most of them were solved. I guessed? hahaha
recently is very busy with my assignment, plus the unlucky angel is flying on top of my head, I have to rush for my assignments as my laptop would die very soon! urggghhh~
things had been spoiled and broken since few weeks ago... my pocket is getting drier and drier... Have I finished my good luck? or somebody is cursing me at the back? hahaha. even my ring can get broken, how lucky I am, huh？ >.<
anyway, life still goes on, and I am waiting for some day to come, some big and significant day for me... I just hope everything goes smoothly and I know somebody will be there for me ^^ hehehe.
there were some events happening like the 30 hour famine camp, dreamers and prom night... and we manage to sponsor a child from Myanmar, happyING^^
will post these events on as soon as possible, hahaha. life is getting toucher and i am a bit worried...
what is my future???
be happy and cheer!
good luck and have a nice day!

2012 New Year Visiting

 Chinese New Year 2013 fell on 23rd of January. when I am posting this, it is already Chap Goh Mei. hahaha.
This year began with challenging circumstances yet there were some memorable events happening on me too. hehehe. New year, everything is never the same anymore. I am growing ^^
This new year was quite different in a way that some friends came over for more than 5 times in a week. you know who you are.hahaha.
the first day of CNY always boring as I stayed home. anyway, this was the first time in this new house (because we just moved in ba~) hahaha.
the next few days I was not at home anymore, followed friends for visitings and out for supper at night bla bla bla... it was very surprising that this year most friends could gather together to go visiting. felt like I was going back to secondary school again, with my lovely secondary school mates^^ and it is a good thing for all of us still in contact with each others, it had been 3 years anyway!!! ha!
below are some of the pictures taken in different friends' houses.

this one was taken at Li Xian's house. she looked more like a waitress that day, busy like a buzz buzz bee.hahaha

after that we went to 3rd mushroom aka Ching Foong's house. and the guys were really =.= and we looked like taking family photo didn't we? hahaha. and someone face so thick, asked for a photo shot with Foong's brother. hahaha.

then we still went to Puan Phang's and some other friends' house, too tired to take photos anymore.

however, the next day, we continued for 2nd round visiting. ha! this time only went to Yun and Jane's house. hahaha.

see what stupid thing we did.lalala

taken in Yun's room. hahaha. 

kept thinking what pose we had.lalala

see, we are so creative.

from the left, don't talk, don't hear, don't want, don't smell and don't see. hahaha

dragon year, of course had to take picture with some related thing la~ seriously, i don't know why Yun laughed so happily.hahaha

and it is me! in the dragon year!

and the next day, I went for class gathering at Sharing Planet. hahaha. around half of class joined, so happy to meet some of the old friends. see, we are all grown up and be more prettier and handsome. thanks for crossing my life and shared the memories.

 now, CNY had officially ended after tonight, no more CNY mood! ha! Wish all of us a happy year and all the best!
good luck!
gambate!

When Life Moves On...

there has been such a long time since my last update. Awww~ Life is busy, busy and busy.hahaha. what to do, I love it^^
Going to move my house that I had been living for 20 years for my life. it is fantastic, but it is saddening too. 20 years is not a short period. hahaha. By the way, I would have my own room, FINALLY! hahaha we are all excited for it!
Going back to my work, it goes on well. It is not tiring like the other jobs I worked on before. well, after all, I am the boss, so of course, I always make it working efficiently. By the way, I just hope that it goes smoothly as I wished. hahaha. it is not hard, perhaps?
Then, it is ASSIGNMENTSSS time! hahaha. 6 subjects are not a torture to me, I know I can cope with it. They only make my life fuller and busier. hahaha. I try to manage my time well as usual, so that I would not waste any single second. lalala. it works, sometimes. hehehe. Wish me luck in my studies. ^^
after all, this is just a random post about my present life. it is fun! hahaha. meet some new friends and people, get to know more and understand more, get to be MORE mature( i think I am mature, anyway?so I want to be more mature).hahaha. just when I am writing until here, there is a disruption in front of me. hahaha. don't want to tell what is that. what I can say is, First Impression Really Doesn't Work!!! so I gonna change it. lalala. tomorrow going to be Prom Night, and this is the first time I join this kind of event since I entered this college, well, it has been only one year ba~ hahaha.
when life moves on, I am going forward as well, don't want to think back those good and bad memories, I am who I am now, and I treasure my this moment now. hahaha.
So, Lalala, Keep going people!
Good luck to all of us who striving for lives!
Gambate!

Arrival of WilBer Pan in Kuching 20.08.11

After the long waiting, Wilber finally came to Kuching! I had been cracking my neck long for this! This is so unbelievable that I had actually won the VIP tickets and his album through the caller ringtone contest. hahaha. Amazing right!? not really many people got it.hahaha. I made my flight back from Singapore earlier too just to see hiM! OMX~ I am very idiot when talk about him. It's all about him him him! Because I am Crazy over U U U U U! Wilber Pan!

He would not know me, forever, perhaps~ But I had admired him for more than 8 years, and I never change my love to him, nothing can change it, though.hahaha. A lot of people thought that I admire him because of his look. and now what? I clarify here, I like him because of his influence in my life.

'what influence?'

curious leh~ hahaha.

There was a time, I lost my direction, and became very aggresive. I did not remember how I met him, if I am not mistaken, it was his song, Bi Hu Man Bu, "lizard strolling". The rhythm was relaxing.After that, I started to search for his songs. I found most of his songs are very inpiring and motivating,  they make me feel a lot better and much more directed. And even he injured his knee, he never gave up, but he kept practising and made himself a better him. I see a WILL in him, is that why he called himself Will instead of Wilber? hehehe. I don't know. I saw the WILL to change for the sake of a better me as well. I learnt to put in more effort in order to achieve my dream, regardless how people judge me.
My heart is locked since that day, just for him. Maybe Wilber would never know who I am, what did he do which have motivated me, but I cannot doubt the changes he brought to the inner me. I really appreciate it. Hereby, I would like to thank you, Wilber.  You show a positive attitude to us!

THANK YOU AND I WILL SUPPORT YOU FOREVER!

Even if the whole world is agaisnt you, I would still standing at a small corner, watching you, supporting you! You have my & my <3 forever.

Jia you!

the album and tickets!hehehe

I was very surprised when Wan Wai Fun and Royce called me.hahaha.

i got this sticker when I went in the VIP zone.

hehehe. During the day, I was actually late. By the time I reached there, there was already crowded. Luckily mine was VIP seats, then I had a seat, and with me I could bring a friend, and the lucky friend was, Natasha! hahaha. she was very excited as well, lalala. we waited for around 2hours, and Wilber came at around 8.30pm. all of us were nervous.hahaha.

when we came to the back stage, I finally saw him! he was in black suit and was wearing spectacle. I shook his hand, *happy~ This was the first time I saw him, with just a few feet distance. so Unbelievable! 

He is fair, tall and sunny^^ I think no one can beat him! most of the people certainly will look back if he walk passed them. He is impressive. With just one look, and never would be forgotten. ^^

After that, he went out and straight away sang and danced for two songs. the scene was flooded with screams. He easily made the scene hot!

he danced and sang for the first two songs. COOL~

then, he sang xiao xiao ma yi. nice voice.

I envy Amelyn a lot as she could talked to him in such a close distance. So nice~ I think my super idol must be very tired, because he looked tired, and he kept wiping his sweats. so heartbroken to see this. Nevermind, this was his final place before going back to Taiwan. Get a good rest before you going on, OK? Don't make yourself sick because we will worry.

* I overheard somebody behind me said that if they can get the towel they would frame it.hehehe. Who wouldn't? 

below are some pictures of him in the concert. All look handsome and cool.hahaha

He is cute, too. During the concert there was a part that he played a dancing game with fans. He dropped he bear to give to the winner. then, he showed us a very panic and very innocent look. So cute! he opened his jaw wide, showing his surprise. hahaha. He suddenly picked up the bear and kissed it! Awww! so glad for the girl who won it! hahaha. He is such a lovely big boy.

he waves to the audience.

don't remember what song is this. hehehe

Overall, he sang six songs, including 'quan mian tong qi, chu dong', 'xiao xiao ma yi','U U U', 'wo men dou pa tong' and 'Bu de bu ai' . He is great at both slow and fast songs. this is so wonderful! He sang the last song with the audience. Terrific! hahaha. during the session, he went down to shake hands with the audience too!

lastly, I went up for the album signing session. I actually have something to ask and to tell, but I have no chance because it was too quick. so disappointed. By the way, one thing that made me a bit happier was that he looked at me, and then smile at me. My sister said this was very ordinary because this is out of politeness. But his glimpse and smile means a lot for me, even though he doesn't know me. I still feel glad. It's my pleasure to meet him. But I forgot to say Happy birthday to him. What a dismay~

 

this is the album with his signature. I shook his left hand. hahaha. two times in a day, I am sure I made people envious and they would kill me of they see me. lalala

well, after all, it was a nice concert, even though the time is short. He promised he would come Kuching again! hahaha. I am awaiting! 

really thank you, Wilber, thank you for coming, and thank you for arriving in my life. thanks for making an important mark in my heart, leaving the foot marks in my life. Thank you, for you are my role model, for you are the one who motivates me. Thanks. Forever support from me^^

Take care.

Have a nice day.

Famine 30, Inti College 6-7/8/2011

Mother Theresa said: “We can not do great things. We can only do little things with great love."

I always hope that I can do little meaningful things with my overflowed love. and here they gave me the chance. I participated in Famine 30, which was hold at Inti College Sarawak, from Saturday to Sunday.

I’ve seen so many photos and videos on how the children suffered, yet, I never know that there are over half of the children in the world are actually suffering from poverty, famine and 1 child DIED in every 3 SECONDS! !! Can you believe this? OMX! There are over 2 billions of children who still need our care! I am extremely frustrated after I got to know the statistic from the participation of Famine 30 as a volunteer. 

How I wish I could hold them in my arms, even though my arms are not wide enough, they are strong. How I wish I am able to cover and protect these innocent angles from sufferings. 

I know, and I assure, someday in the future, I am going to help at my greatest effort and I wish I could influence people by awaking them from the world of materialism. And I swear, I will limit the expenses on junk food and I will always think twice when buying something unnecessary. ( you know la, girls ba~ love to waste $$$~)hahaha. 

Actually I had already planned to sponsor a child at the end of this year. And AHA! I know where I should start now. Hahaha. And I add a wish list to my 2015-> sponsor at least 3 children at the year! Lalala. Wish me luck so that I can earn many $$$~

There are people who want the simplest needs, but they couldn’t get it. Food, clean water, shelter… seems so simple to us; we can get it in a grab of hand. That is why; we take it for granted all the times! How about the poor countries? The children do not have enough food. I read an article and found that people from some part of Africa do not have food, so they have no choice but to eat cow dung to deliver medicine for AIDS. However, you see what happen around us… unfinished food are everywhere if you eat outside, because there are always people who don’t know how lucky they are to have food to eat. I doubt I would do this, because I always finish the food in my plates; and I still feel guilty that I did not finished the fried rice few weeks ago. I am also glad that there are people doing and feeling the same. One of the volunteer, Zhi Cheng did not waste the seaweed fried rice in the party and he packed it back for tomorrow’s breakfast? Whatever. The most important thing is there are people who are conscious about do not wasting food! Hahaha. Thanks.

Same goes to water source. There are people who drink, wash and bath in dirty muggy water; and us? We have more than enough water sources, therefore, people can turn on the pipe and let the water flows like that? Sometimes I really feel like throwing them the photos on people who live and use in a dirty environment and prompt to get diseases. I think we do not deserve that much and I think someone on top there also see the same, so there are disasters happening around us. That is a warning! But nobody takes it. They still indulge in their own world which full of unnecessary luxuries. Why? Why at the same time, there are people who couldn’t afford the simplest requirement, they don’t have house, not even to have a mosquito net. I never wonder that a net like this can help those kids from deadly diseases and illness. I watched the video on how the kids moaning and just passed away like that. My tears flow down, finally, after several times of controlling. The tears of guilty, which make me feel more sad. The cheap cheap net that we not even bother to use! And it means so much for others! How sad! So damn it! And I never know it!

The children just opt for the simplest things, yet they do not have it; and these simplest things are all what we take for granted! We never realize that there are people who try very hard to get all these when we just simply waste them away. We just… NEVER, NEVER THINK! We are sticking to our comfortable lives, nice room and soft bed; NEVER awake and keep complaining. We NEVER know how our lousy things matter to others, so we keep complaining how bad they are. The reasons are, we never sleep on floors, we never live in expose environment, we never drink dirty water and we never get hungry. All we always do is… COMPLAINING! Arrggghhh! How bad I am when I think back. I have such a nice life, I do not have to drink dirty water, and throw away the water which is a little dirty; I do not get hungry at all because there are always food available for me. My papa even disagreed for me to participate in this event because I have to starve myself! After a little struggling, he finally allowed and see, I made it! 30 hours was really hard to go. The time was just too slow to pass and my stomach was grumbling. My friend asked me: “why you don’t want to eat?” I just smiled. In my little world, I tell myself, ‘don’t get attracted, you want to feel how the kids suffer, isn’t that the purpose you are here?’ and now, I know how uneasy is the feel of hungry. My hunger was for 30 hours only, but how about the kids? Their hungers are continuing and they never get to get their stomach a little full. If you don’t believe me, skip a meal for yourself and see how it feels like. If you realize something, congratulations!

All we have should not be taken for granted anymore. I want to make myself a limitation card, to limit my expenses so that I would have enough money to sponsor 2 children in the end of 2012. Well, I eat too much junk food and it is fattening and no vitamins. Also, my money goes more to my studies expenses so I have to be thriftier in order to gather RM1200! It should not be a problem, since I work, huh? Hahaha. Who want to join me for sponsorship also can contact me. Hehehe. Wish me luck!

I wrote some notes for this post at some free times, then everyone thought I was writing diary. My gosh~ who will write diary in the morning!? hahaha. then, a volunteer asked me what keep my enthusiasm for writing blog. I told him part of the reasons--> to share knowledge & experiences so to influence other;besides, also to enhance my writing skills so that it would not rusted. :p one reason that I did not tell him is that: I write my articles to earn money.hehehe.

during the camp, I was really appreciating those participants who still had smiles on their faces. whenever they saw others, they would smile to them. this give me dedication to move on; unlike some of them, I rarely saw them smile. Was it because of tiredness? I do not know. All I know is I was trying hard to smile too! If you know how much people would value your smiles, especially tiredness and strangeness powered over excitement and enthusiasm, you would do the same as well. I think there is nobody who does not want others to smile to them, right? hahaha

I really feel grateful to Ysin and the camp leader, Wyndie, who allowed me to join at the very last minute! Besides, thanks to Famine 30, I was able to learn and realize so much and met so many friends. I know a little bit on how to organize this camp and so, I add a new wish to my 2012 wish list  organizing a DIY camp in my college targeting 100 people participating! Hahaha Big aim? I am not sure. But I know I can handle it^^

After the camp finished,(Yeah! We MADE it!) We went to Legend for dinner. They celebrated an early birthday for Wyndie, our camp leader. Happy birthday to you! Hahaha, you are born the same day with my sister! Hehehe. Here are some photos of the events, hope to see more people next year! Jia you!

this is my ID for being a volunteer

my T-shirt for famine 30

these are the companies who sponsored the camp. thanks for your support! ^^

she looks cool, right?^^

this is Ysin, the leader for volunteer, she is great and cool, especially in entertaining and making the scene hot~ thanks~

this is Wyndie Chai, Our camp leader. she is a nice lady and today is her birthday! Happy birthday to you!

special thanks to this two ladies because if not of them, I would not be able to join the camp. so thanks again!

Irene as doctor, Linda and Kevin as delivery doctors, ah fen as registration clerk.

for the first game, my group role played as hospital staffs and see, what is our hospital's name.hahaha

ah fen is a staff at registration counter, I helped her in case there would be a crowd. hahaha.

who am I? I am a doctor who gave speech. hahaha. and I switched my venue for 3 times. -.-!!! 

people kept coming to buy supplements and for injections.hahaha. if not, they would probably dead, and go to the... 

tomb! hahaha

during the night, there were many groups of performers performed for us. all were really great, especially the last group, Dream Machine, where all the campers and volunteers had fun together,it was very memorable.^^

 at the second day, after the aerobic exercise, the participants performed drama. a lot of us were touched by the 'children' group, even their drama was simple, it was the clearest message I had received among the other dramas. A lot of children RIP because of a lack of basis requirements.

this group of drama was funny! the 'delivery aunty' who lacked of professional skills killed a lot of infants. this drama was to awake people the need of knowledge about delivery skills.

paying attention on the drama.

this is Phit Fen, the only one I know when I first came here. hahaha. she is not sick, ok? she is very kind and always do good deeds. she is such a lovely girl.~ 

found this picture randomly. the only kid in the camp (left), with the volunteer(Melvin Chai). they like to stick together, I wonder why~ hahaha. they look a bit alike, isn't it? 

this is a pic taken with MyFM DJ. hehehe.nice la~also, this is the group photo. 

this is the sign language. at last, we made a 30 sign signified famine 30! it was a bit hard to instruct but the end product is nice!

 and finally, it's me! beside me is Denise, a new friend^^ we were leading the participants to the hall.

after the event, we went to Legend to have our dinner. they celebrated wyndie's birthday as well. hehehe. Happy birthday to you!and thanks for the treat! it was so great to meet all of you! from left, tate, Qi Wen ( the girl who takes nice photos), Kelly (the girl who looks like me^^), Terence Lee, Raymond, Ysin, Wyndie, Irene, Jamie, HanPerng, Flo Kee, Ee Hsia, zhi Cheng, Melvin, Amelia, Hanee, Doris, Fen and some more (paiseh don't know what is your name *-*)

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Lastly,(finally~ hahaha. This is a really long post.) I want to change myself. AGAIN? Hahaha. Yup! For the sake for a better me and the beloved children. I will always say: “I DO!”

How about you? Do you think the same?

Anyway, Good Luck!

Jia you. 

风凉话Go Go Go！ 梦加油加油！

最近真的很忙！忙什么，我却真的不是很清楚!只是感觉时间就真的滴答滴答地走，而我却还在原地蹉跎，什么都没有做到！虽然我真的忙个不停！忙什么？我真的无可奉告~因为我真的不知道！
天啊！最近讲话都喜欢绕口令，真的很好玩一下！啦啦啦。虽然忙，日子照样过！嘻嘻嘻！
最近除了忙学校的功课，好奇怪的功课哦！虽然这学期都没有考试，但是assignment还真的很多，而且都超级无比的奇怪！哈哈哈。做专访eh~然后还有做卡片~天啊！真的很可爱！可是天啊！这真的超刺激的！（我不是拿自己的grade来赌哦~）我会努力的！梦娜加油加油加油！要相信自己是达成目标的唯一垫脚石！靠自己！靠自己！！靠自己！！！
其实，还有在忙其他的事情，比如说……自己想创办一间补习中心（目前阶段当然是无牌的^^)没想到，面对的压力其实真的很多。从选地方、用品、桌椅到设计传单，都由自己亲自负责；很多时候还跟爸爸轧上了， %￥*#@~我不是故意的。我明白，老爹他认为他经验比我足，什么都懂；可是我也有自己的想法阿~幸亏我老娘够英明，处处帮助我。嘻嘻嘻！我家的老虎婆真的是越老越聪明、设想得很周到。谢谢你的英明！万岁！哈哈哈
其实这不是最糟的。你知道吗？有一种人，他们喜欢在你决定做某些事情时，甚至是你只是在打算的时候，就已经知道了全盘的事。然后到处散播，好的没关系，不知道的也乱说，毁人名声。这还不要紧，他们不了解不知道，可以原谅他们的无知；但是最让人气愤的是，还在那里说风凉话！说你办不到，说你这说你那，不知道的也装知道说出来，还以为自己真的很懂你！天啊！！！真的吃不消！
还有更吃不消的！！！我的天啊！一说到这，我这个温柔的梦姑娘都快变成个疯子了！非说他不可！天啊！！！
要说风凉话，请到其他地方说。但是你知道吗？这些人偏偏选在你窗外，在你眼睛都还没张开的时候，就叽叽喳喳说个不停，深怕你会听不见。你气愤吗？所谓一天之计在于晨，一早起床心情就不好，你还有心情做其他事吗？老虎不发飚，你还真的以为我是病猫？反正被吵醒了，就趁他们还在说风凉话的时候，把窗帘拉开。“咻”的一声，外面就没有声音了——帘开人散。
有时候，我真的不怪他们。他们读书少，所以知识也不多，知书达理程度无法达到我们现今社会的标准，不懂得如何控制自己的嘴巴和嫉妒欲，所以才会这样说风凉话。他们不知道：“道人是非者，亦是是非人。”既然你们没有内涵，谈话内容也当然一样，所以无所谓啦，我姑娘心宽一点，就不计较了。没内涵的东西记得多了，自己反而被误导，变成没水准了！所以，
我不想听，
不会听，
干吗听？
就不去听，
不要听你们的那些冷言冷语。
风凉话 go go go!梦娜加油加油加油！！！
你们越是不看好我，我越是努力做给你们看。一向来都知道，你们嫉妒我的才干，毕竟到现在为止，都还没有人破我的纪录，我一向都很优秀，你们才眼红呗~
人红是非多，我懂^^如果我不红，你们哪会七早八早就在‘妒忌’我呢？我不发威不代表我笨，我只是忍住，身为一个有内涵的人，是不会与你们动口的。天啊！真的觉得自己好坏，好像在说别人坏话。不知道的人还以为我捏造谎言扮可怜叻~我现在是说人是非者马？哈哈哈
你不知道的是，我就像根野草，你们越是想把我踩在脚底，我越是长得高~也许有天还会比你们还高，挡住你们的视线。那时真的是，哈哈~不好意思啦~光芒盖掉了你。
我要让你们知道，我爸爸妈妈生的女儿是最棒的!
风凉话你们爱说多少就说多少。说得越多，那只是证明你们越没内涵！
风凉话go go go!梦娜加油加油加油！你是最棒的！
真想给自己一个吻！有谁能代替我给自己一个吻呢？哈哈哈
大家加油！
我们都是幸福的！！！

我的一号爱人

他从来都不是个伟人；他甚至比平凡的人还要更平凡。关于他的点点滴滴，我也只是从他口述中得知。他幼时家境贫穷，他很小就帮忙家里寻找生计；也因为家里供不起，他的学历并不高。虽然如此，他很努力工作，给我们他所能够给予的。

因此，我爱他。

他好像什么都没有；没有房、没有地也没有钱。但是，他从不曾让我们挨饿。只要我想吃的，想要的，他都会尽可能满足我。他常说：“女生胖一些比较好看。”有时，肚子饿了，懒惰病却发作，尤其是打工回来，身心疲惫时，就算厨房已经空荡荡，他依然有办法变魔术，把牛奶变出来。也许有一天，我们会穷得连牛奶也买不起，但是我相信，只要我饿了，就算把他身上的肉割下来他都在所不惜。

所以，我很爱他。

他是个十足的大男人，比牛还固执，只要是他认为对的，无论如何他都会争论到底。我也很执着，两头牛已吵架，战火比世界大战还要激烈，就像全世界都快摧毁了似的。但是，最后他都会先让步，说：“你赢你赢！”虽然心里还是非常不服气。他固执，我就比他更固执。因为我明白他遇见我就像冰遇到火——溶化了。他对其他人都无法忍让，理直气壮，唯独对我忍气吞声。

就这样，我更爱他了。

他很爱碎碎唸；从东唸到西，从早唸到晚。尤其是我乱花钱的隐犯了的时候，他更是从街市唸到回家，从吃饭唸到睡觉。除此之外，他很会挑，总是嫌东嫌西。每当我说我想送他礼物，他总会责备我奢侈。但是，固执如我，哪会理他的劝。很奇怪的是，他从来都不会嫌弃我送的任何礼物，而是很欣然、很高兴、很惊喜地一一接受。我很清楚，他其实也很想有时能有个人在特别的日子里送些礼物给他。人之常情嘛！任谁都是这么想的！只是，他不想我把辛苦赚来的钱都花掉，所以才选择口是心非。

因此，我非常地爱他。

我不喜欢别人抽烟，他却偏偏饭后一根烟，屡劝不改。每次答应戒烟后又抽烟，所幸的是他没有越抽越凶，不然我铁定把他的香烟换成饼干！虽然他有一大堆的坏习惯，什么都没有，但是他很体贴。他晓得做家务的繁琐，所以他不认为家务是女人的责任而把它推向我。反之，他常常帮忙洗衣、收衣服、叠衣服……他从不因而觉得丢脸，还努力的劝说其他大男人做家务。在他的感染下，好多对家务有歧视的男人都开始了他们的家务之旅。

他的了解，让我不得不爱他。

我从来都没有对他说过我爱他；他也不曾对我说类似的话。不过，从他的言行、我的举止中，就能看出那无可取代的爱。除了满得快溢出来的爱，我不会忘记他常告诉我说：“做人要知足。”想对他说：“虽然你什么都没有、什么都不是；可是对我而言，你是一切。因为有你，所以我存在。”

也许在未来的日子里，我会离开，会到外头闯荡，拥有自己幸福的家。即使是这样，也没有人可以改变或代替他在我心里的位置，他永远都是我的一号爱人。因为有他，所以有我。

很感激他，我那最敬爱的爸爸。

也借此祝贺全天下的爸爸：“父亲节快乐！”

p/s:

这篇稿子在19。06。2011的诗华日报《文林风》刊登出来，很高兴能和大家分享^^我爸爸很疼我，就算我是家里最大的，就算我比其他弟妹麻烦~嘻嘻嘻……

Gordon Gathering 09.06.2011

 It was a gathering with some of my classmates and next door classmates at Life Cafe, Jalan Song. Well, I did not know why it was called "Gordon Gathering", but most probably because Gordon was the one who organised the gathering.hahaha. Gordon was our monitor from form1 to form5.
I just simply dressed up myself for the gathering after my work at 10pm! Actually I missed the gathering at Hartz Chicken because I have to work, so 2 of my friends said they are going to meet me later for another cup of tea. well, it turned out with all of those who went to the gathering to Hartz Chicken came to Life Cafe as well. Adumak~ so many friends over there, was quite shocked at that moment.hahaha. there were friends that I had not meet for a long time, like Naomo, Shirlene, Chai Yun, Jimmy and Dickson.
well, around 16 of us, sitting together at the combined tables, chit chatting along and playing game. My gosh!

My friends thought I have not had my dinner yet.well, I never missed the nice food.hahaha. so I ordered a 'chuan cai' mee. a bit spicy but if compared to this spicy noodle, mine is really not a big deal!

this is the special 'ma la' mee where they added 2 plates of additional 'ma la' sauce and extra noodles. and they are going to play a game, well, i considered it a game rather than a trick,hahaha. we play 'scissors, stone and cloth' and those who lose had to eat the noodles!hahaha. Because our group was too big so we divided ourselves into 3 small groups.

I was so unfortunate that I was actually winning all the time so I did not have to eat the noodles, but once I said it out "I always win so I do not have to eat", AHA! It came and I lose! hahaha.

 this is a shoot with Li Xian, one of my best friends.

then, we were too bored. And did not know why, the guys suddenly talked about taking photos with hand gesturing numbers. then, here came us to take photos with numbers!

 

Then they asked us compete see who will win. Hmm, well, later on, facebook vote shown that guy's photo won out! and most of them think that is because of the 5th person, Jimmy's  flying kiss as the main key to win.

well, girls' photo is not bad as well.hahaha

A shoot of my dear friends. Shirlene has never changed, she likes to do expression like this.(the one from right)

then, before we went off, we had a group photo. these are all my good friends and I enjoyed so much with them. The cafe was fulled of our laughter and we did not care whether other customers were annoyed or not.

It was a lovely night.

thanks.

Good luck and gambate to all of them!

all the best!

Jia You!