梦游记

Life is Dream Walking; I dream Walking in my LIFE^^

小小心意,大大爱

来了新加坡一个月多,因为现在的住家有跳蚤,所以睡觉时总是被咬,双手和双脚满是印痕。打电话回家时向爸妈投诉,他们也很心疼。
恰巧堂哥堂姐回古晋喝喜酒,所以家中两老特地买了药膏带过来给我,还和其他家人一起“传授”除蚤法门给我们。哈哈哈
ZAM BUK……我其实不是很确定它是不是真的有效,但是,
它是家人的心意,
他们的爱,
他们的关怀……

离家一个月多,
也会有遇到困难和问题的时候,
没有人可以诉说,
没有人会倾听,
没有人会给意见,
没有人会想知道……
累的时候,也没有人帮我按摩……
现在,这个药膏天天陪着我,
上班下班,
晴天雨天,

我都带着。
它是我现在的精神支柱,因为只要看到它,我就看到了满满的爱与希望……
一个父母对女儿的爱和期盼……
虽然只是很便宜的一罐药膏,但里面充满了爱和关怀。

它不只是药,也是心意和想念……
想说,因为有你们,所以我才能变得坚强,变得勇敢。就算遇到挫折,被骗,你们还是会在身旁……
你们的心意,放在心里。我爱你们……
愿所有人幸福快乐~

the shooting

I was going for the Imodals shooting this morning...finally...Actually I had not tell my parents about this yet,and only my brother and I knew about this,and he promised to lent me the amount needed after he went and understood the situation.By the way,when I was waiting for him this morning(he went back to Kuching and coming back this morning),he asked me to tell my daddy first.I was shocked because I dont want to tell my parents and anybody else about this first as I knew most of them will disagree with me,but I know this is the only way to let him borrowing me the money.hahaha.So I dared myself to call him and Of course, being his eldest daughter that lives with him for about 19 years,what I guess is exactly wont go wrong and it is definately right,I know my daddy will agree once he understand the things well,hahaha.He agreed and my brother is speechless,so he lend me the money i needed.hahaha.Anyway,thanks alot yea,Khong ko~hahaha.I will not forget you if I can earn alot from there,TQ>
After I get the money from him,I straight away went to the company.I spent half of my day over there,taking 10 different styles of pictures,tiring...
hahaha,however.the stylist and the cameraman are nice,and they treated me good.the stylist even told me how to change my bad habit---bad posture and my eyelid problem.hahaha.Thanks.and I will try to change my bad habits.hehehe.My image consultant even asked me am I hungry caused I went there for half day and did I eat.I was actually hungry but lie to him,cause very shame to say "yeah,hungry ah."hahaha.anyway,thanks for caring me.I know,there is always I am the one who being protected and being sayang by the people surrounding me.Just like what the cameraman said," I treat u better than others do.You should feel it right?" hahaha.I know and thanks.I know that,cause I know you kept trying to be humour with me when you see I am tire.Thanks.
I miss curry  a lot,so after the shoot I went to 85 cafe near my house to have the curry meal! hahaha,still,my mama and my aunty's curry is the best.hahaha,begin to miss it! hmm...
anyway,as what I can feel and I have to conclude it,there are alot of people who care and love me,I know it.Thank you for your care and love.But there is some times you have to let me fall and let me face the difficulties,what you have to do is stand aside,see me fall down and hold me on when I was tire and has no more strength.The experience will tell everything to me.
I love you all.thanks for being there for me.
have a nice day.
good luck.

disaster……

haiz..... I jz bought my new handphone for about one week only,but then it drops into water and now "shot shot"...Dont know wat should i do to rescue this situation...( heart broken)...hahaha.
Actually it doesn't fully dropped into the water because when it drop i took it out immediately,and when i checked there was also not much water.So,what is the problem? i  dont know...
I am thinking of send the phone back because it has one year warranty,but I dont know whether it can be use or not.If cant,then what should i do? Throw it? repair it? or anything else to do...
DONT KNOW...i really dont know... i have to wait for my brother to come back first and discuss with him.hahaha,so funny~
anyway,dont know why I feel tire for this life,maybe work too hard and have not enough rest.hahaha.who know...anyway,tomorrow will be my off day and I have some important event to do,hahaha.Hopefully it can work successfully.
anyway,have a nice day.
good luck.
gambate.

生活中的无奈

每天起来,第一件事就是洗澡去工作,然后累了放工回家,再过后便是打开电脑上网……每天同样的生活方式,我腻了……开始想找些不同的东西和事物来做,但是人在他乡身不由己,做什么都不方便,感觉好累,好纳闷……
有时候,感觉压力很大,什么事情都做不好;
有时候,感觉独在异乡,没有情人;
有时候,感觉想家,想念家乡的菜肴;
有时候,想微笑,但为什么它却变得苦苦的。

这是长大的象征吗?开始有了烦恼和惆怅吗?
我并不害怕长大,我会承受得更多,更成熟,更好……
只是,有时候累了,也会想有人能分担,有人能为我着想,鼓励我的决定……

生活在异乡,我会试着找寻自己想要的经验和目标,希望大家都能认同我的做法及决定,就算它是错的,也希望你们默默支持我,看我跌倒,然后再扶我起来。这样一来,我才会成长,才会更明白处事对人的道理。

愿我在远方的家人身体健康,万事顺利。
愿大家幸福快乐……

大爱`小爱`沉默的爱

* 家人的爱


有些人,会把爱挂在嘴边,动不动就说:“我爱你。”这种表达是露骨的,但也是令人羡慕的,尤其是家人之间能够做到这样,在保守的华人传统文化中真的很难得。
令我妒忌的一家人---纬营的一家……
起初,我都在想:为什么两母女可以有聊不完的话题,为什么他们能无所不谈,能敞开心胸地从天谈到地却一点都没有尴尬的感觉?开心时一起分享;伤心时抱在一起痛哭……他们甚至可以把他们对彼此的爱,写成文字,与大家分享。
他们所展现的大爱,是多么的值得效仿!试问有多少个家庭能做到这样呢?
因为我和妈妈的感情并没有那么的要好,没有那么开明~我发现我连“我爱你”都无法开口对我的父母说……真的很愧疚,也很汗颜~就算心里真的很爱他们,我还是无法越过心里头的那条沟渠,只能选择其他的方法来表示我对他们的爱。我相信,他们比我爱他们更爱我,虽然他们不会说“我爱你,宝贝”但是从他们对我细微的照顾和动作,就知道他们的爱也可以和纬营及她妈妈媲美的。
我小时是个小麻烦,长大了却还是个大麻烦,常常替父母添麻烦,增加他们的负担。小时候,身体虽然健康,但还是时常出毛病。生病发烧咳嗽尿疾皮肤病通通来,虽然最后都好了,可是长大后皮肤病又来了,还带了敏感症状……-_-!!! 我都不晓得我究竟花了他们多少钱在我的医药费上。二来就是我的丢三落四毛病,经常把东西弄丢……哈哈哈。我也不懂这是为什么,已经很努力在改了,但还是一样,有时都在怀疑自己是否变得更糊涂了。朋友说是老人痴呆……哈哈哈。别无他法,在家时,登记护照,重要的文件通通留给妈妈保管。登记在SPM考试期间就弄丢了至少三次,被母亲罗嗦了上百次,但是显然的,还是不能把我的坏毛病摒弃。哈哈哈。现在自身来到新加坡,什么文件都由自己保管,每次打电话回去时妈妈一定提醒我记得要把文件放好。为了让她安心,我把文件都交给堂姐保管。哈哈哈。

其实,他们对我的爱又何止这些小小的动作呢?只要闭上眼好好想一想,就有无数个影子掠过脑海,提醒我,他们有多想我,爱我……
他们思想保守,无法像纬营和她妈妈一样开明,但是他们的小爱,却仍然充斥着我的生活点滴。他们默默耕耘,滋润我这颗小小的种子,让我变成一朵最美丽的花儿。
他们用他们的方式,传达他们沉默的爱,用行动告诉我,他们有多爱我。
所以我常告诉他们,以后买房子时要留个房间给我,因为我也许嫁不出,会一辈子赖着他们。因为我明白,就算全世界的人读抛弃你,家人永远都会为你把家门敞开。就算我没有人要,我的爸妈也会不嫌弃的再多煮一个人的饭菜。也许那时,是我服侍他们了。
*朋友的爱

小时候,什么都不了解,什么都不知道,世界是浩瀚的宇宙,等着去开拓。只要身边有个年龄相仿的人,就可以玩上好久。那时候,朋友之间的问题,从来没有出现过。就算有,大多也只是抢玩具罢了~

小学时期,结识了好多朋友,好开心,因为玩伴很多。可是到了中学时期,小学同窗六年的玩伴兼好友却因为一些芝麻绿豆的事情,草草的断了我们之间好难好久才建立起来的友谊……真的很可惜。我知道,你不会看到这篇文章,但我希望你了解,我还是很珍惜你,还是很希望我们能像以前一样,虽然这件事过了五年,我还是很在意我们的友谊。

中学时期,社交圈子当然会扩大。交了很多性格非常不同的朋友,因此也因为彼此的猜疑及无法忍受而吵架。记得有一次,不晓得为什么,因为小小的不信任,却让大家都哭成一团。我不是有意的,只是不习惯朋友之间有隐瞒,何况我们是非常要好的朋友。也非常的谢谢你,darling纬营。谢谢你当时在我身边,陪我一起抱头痛哭,而不是让我一个人独自承受这些问题。

“三姑六婆”,我的死党……你们知道吗?我好想你们哦~有人说,如果一个人在独处时,不时会发出傻笑或微笑,一定是在想情人了。可是,对我来说,无论是家人或朋友,都有这个能力做到这一点——当想起过去的回忆时,让人独自微笑。甚至是,就算回想了好几十回,依然感到很新鲜,很怀念。

现在,我无法跟你们一起出去逛街看戏讲笑话,真的很想念~每次当你们说四个人唯独少了我的时候,我是多么的遗憾,我也好想跟你们一起出去玩,就算只是做些无聊的事,我还是很乐意浪费我的时间。哈哈哈。你们要等我哦~我们会像你们看见的三个阿嫲一样,最后一个阿嫲会出现的~

还有好多好多朋友,虽然我没有提出你们的名字,但就像“三姑”说的:就算你不是“三姑六婆”的其中一员,但你是我们的亲戚~哈哈哈。我们有共同的回忆,要在某年某月某日,在某个地点,一起分享。

谢谢你么出现在我的生活中,替我灰暗的生命画上色彩,图上美丽的图案……

希望我们友谊永固!

*情人之间的爱

“我爱你”……我想这句话在情人之间最容易说出口吧?是因为彼此原本是陌生人,所以不会有疙瘩?我不晓得。哈哈哈。

至今,还是找不到让我可以当面对他说“我爱你”的男生。

啊~你在哪里呀?哈哈哈。我在这里等你啊~
有时会想,究竟恋人是怎样形成的?两个不认识的人,从陌生到相爱,不是很神气吗?

不过阿,我时常在想,有什么人能和我天长地久,白头偕老呢?现今社会中,茫茫人海里,谁会是那个真心/对的人呢?

我希望我的那个他,
是个能够在我弄丢东西时,会知道我把东西放在哪儿,然后帮我找回来的人;
是个能在我累得时候,替我按摩捶背,安慰我的人;
是个能在我失落,不被看好的时候,仍然会支持我的人;
是个能够忍受我怪脾气的人……
有这么一个人吗?
有愿意这么做的人吗?哈哈哈。好多人看了过后应该会觉得我很好笑,很奇怪吧~ 要这些条件,可以请贴身女佣,去按摩院,请管家……哈哈哈。不过,那是不一样的。
我也希望难过哭泣时有个肩膀能够让我靠;也希望有人能对我说:“别怕,一切有我在。大不了我养你。”
好像在说梦话,痴心妄想阿~哈哈哈。

不管如何,我不会忘记自己的立场,和自己的志愿。哈哈哈。爱别人之前,先爱好自己,保护好自己……

我爱自己,爱爸爸,爱妈妈,爱妹妹们,爱弟弟,爱朋友,爱三姑六婆,爱以后的老公……我也爱大自然,爱所有应该被爱的一切。

愿大家幸福快乐,并找到自己的真爱。

因为……所以……

因为有争吵,所以才会有哭泣的眼泪; 因为有夜晚,所以看得见星星的美丽;
因为有白天,所以黑夜才会显得神秘;
因为有战争,所以世界才会乱糟糟;
因为有春天,所以有鸟儿的啼鸣;
因为有快乐,所以有愉悦的笑声;
因为有水,所以有鱼儿的存在;
因为有雨,所以有彩虹的出现;
因为有风,所以有浪的到来;
因为有你,所以有思念……

因为爱,所以爱……

My new phone! SE T707

hahaha,officially announce that i bought a new phone,though it is not the very high-tech phone,but it is in my favourite colour and favourite brand,hahaha,blue SE T707.It is a flip-phone,with all the Sony functions.hahaha,the only weakness for me is it doesn't have wifi,hehehe.Nevertheless,it is still nice to me.hahaha.Actually i dint plan to buy a new handphone,but when I came Singapore,my W850i damaged,cant listen to voice when call.hahaha.so i bopien,then buy a new one.this is the model for T707.hahaha.cool.rite?hahahathis is jz some image for T707.hahaha.
Anyway,I bought this phone from the assistant of my bro.hahaha(cause I still dont have that much money yet,so I lent from him)hahaha.Thanks yea.hehehe
hahaha,want to try its camera tomorrow.hahaha.And tomorrow have to go and do work permit,then tuesday have an appointment with the Imodals.wish me luck yea,hahaha.
have a nice day.
good luck

singapore VS malaysia- life standard

hahaha,seems i have come here for almost one month,then i think i can do some comparisons between Malaysia and Singapore,especially the standard of life.

1.the toilet

M'sia-the toilet for the public in malaysia is dirty,untidy,low standard at all(with the water pipes,and not even mirrors for some,no toilet paper,no toilet paper)...hahaha.terrible >.<
Sing'-the toilet is surely clean and tidy,with the checking of the workers there each hour or 2 hours,the toilets are always filled with toilet papers,tissue selling machine,the water pipe is also the automatic one,some even have auto toilet...OMG...after all,I love Orchard's female toilet.It is sooo standard! so pretty inside and i don want to come out,can you believe it!? It is beautiful,with the make up tables(of course is marble de) and mirrors,the designs are so nice~awesome~m'sia dont even have this type of toilet!totally 5 stars for me.

2.the salary vs good's price
Talking about the life standard,sure we will talk about the salary and the good's prices.

M'sia- the salary is.........LOW,but the good's prices are HIGH! I give an example: if i am a waitress,with a salary of RM 550,and I want to buy a handphone,but it costs RM660. -_-!!! is that possible for me to buy a handphone? hahaha,the answer is no.
Sing'- the salary is higher than in malaysia,hahaha,for sure,and the good's prices are lower(if you dont convert it to RM)hahaha.for example: I am a waitress,with the salary of $1100,and I want to buy the handphone for $300,it that possible?sure is yes,right? so,this is what I mean,the salary VS good's prices.

3.vehicles
For sure,there are lots of differences with the vehicles in West M'sia and East M'sia.Anyway,I am just discussing on what I had seen and \what I know.hahaha.

M'sia-(east m'sia) the buses are teruk...hahaha,dono how many years they drive it and dono whether they service it or not.The buses also have no air-cond and beside that,there are chewing gums and litters anywhere in the bus.when the bus moving,it seems like it is going to break into little parts.hahaha(too old liao).anyway,I know now Kuching has new bus services,the green bus,but i am not sure whether Kuchingians will take bus.hahaha.What's more,the cars...the old old car,i think can be at my daddy's age already,hahaha,still moving on the road.Alamak~hahaha,and 1 more,there is no MRT or LRT in Kuching! hahaha.

Sing'- the buses and MRT services are all use the service  of ezlink card,really convenience and easy,just a "tit' then everything will do.No need insert coins and wait for the tickets or give the money to the driver or assistant and waiting for them to tear the ticket to you.Both types of vehicles are with air-cond,clean and tidy,just sometimes we have to squeeze when peak time.haiz,all sorts of things and people's behavior you can see.
I was shocked when I first see the taxi here.hahaha,no one is the lousy car,they even have the taxi that the car is Merz.hahaha.Do you dare to ask for the taxi like this?hahaha.and the taxis are with the taxi counting meter in counting how far your destination is,so there will be no doubt in cheating you or unfair things happen.

Anyway,I still prefer to sit in car rather than MRT or bus.hahaha.I miss you,car!

4.nursing room

M'sia- there is no such facility in Malaysia,so you can see mothers doing things for their babies very openly.hahaha.I am still wandering will Malaysia's government builtt this some day?

Sing'-When I first come here,I dont even know what is nursing room.hahaha.after some days then i know,that is for mother and baby.So nice,the facilities for them are all there.So all mama just have to bring their bottles,napkins and powder for their little children,thats all.hahaha.

yeah,for now I just can think of four differences that are abit obvious.i am not saying that Malaysia is not good,just it is lost if compare to Singapore.Anyway the Malaysia food is the best compared to Singapore's.hahaha
have a nice day.
good luck

如果……没有如果,那该有多好

如果

别人说

天空是白的

而我看见的是黑的

我是否应该敷衍他们

说我的天空是白色的?

如果

有人说

彩虹是七彩的

但我看到的只有黑白

我是否要告诉他们

我所看见的事实?


如果

他们说

我会被骗,会受伤

我是否可以依旧坚持昔日的立场

不必理会别人的意见?


如果

别人说

这个决定是错的

我是否应该随波逐流

放弃这个决定呢?

如果

全世界的人

都站在我的对立场

我是否要躲起来

还是应该勇敢告诉他们

我的立场不变

就算它是错的?


如果……

因为有太多的如果,

人才会变成那么犹豫

无法果断做自己想做的事……


愿好运降临在我的身上

使我世界里的颜色

大家都能看见

并且赞同……

is this true?

Today is my last day to work with my current boss,the Bohemian Shop.I had found a job at City Link,and will start my work by tomorrow.hahaha.So fast right? just finish this then the other follows.hahaha.yea,i am still young and I want to experience every different thing right now.hehehe.
The boss gave me my salary,$4++ .hahaha,for my 12 working days.hahaha.and my boss and lady boss gave me a box of cookies yesterday and a T shirt just now to show their appreaciation to me.Even the lady that sells souvenir gave me a key chain as a gift,hahaha.so lucky and so ashame I dont have anything to give them accept a bowl of " ba bao" soup.hahaha.
Thanks yea,Love you guys!
After the work,I went to Clarke Quay.Guess why I went there?
I went to interview at Soho Central,the Imodalsholdings Company,in Singapore.
Actually I had been given a name card of the company by their scouter last week during my visit to my cousin at her working place.At first I thought she had found wrong people,cause my height can be model? she probably crazy.hahaha.And I also scare I would meet the cheating people's company,but after I search the internet and there was really a company like this.hahaha.
Maybe the lucky fairy has fallen to me.hahaha.I thought.hahaha.So I went and tried my luck and make an appointment with them at 7.30pm just now.
I had walked a long way to find their place... -.-!!! hahaha.bo pien,i am road idiot,have to take some time.hahaha...
After a long time waiting,finally it was my turn.I had a long chatting with the consultant there.He is nice,and explain every little thing to me well.hahaha.well,I had signed up to become part of them.
Anyway,because I dont have portfolio,so they have to make me one,by this I have to pay $1180.Oh my god,I almost fainted when I hearing this.hahaha,anyway,I will collect enough money for them as soon as possible.
I dont know whether this decision is right or wrong,but I just want to try something new and gain new experience.hahaha.
Hope you people will support me,so that I can do my best and even if I have been cheated,there are still people to support me.hehehe.If it is a trap,then just let it be an experience for me.hehehe
Have a nice day.
good luck.

Visit to Johor 03.01.2010

I was going to JB,actually want to visit my uncle and his family there.Unfortunately,his car was condemned after he was included in an accident.
So,my cousin and I decided to visit them some day later.hehehe.And we went for shopping at the city.
I dont know the name of the plaza,but as what I know,it is not much different than Kuching's Serbekas.hahaha.
Then we went to Danga Bay,a place with a lots of ships parked there,and a fun fair there.At first,we wanted to play in the fun fair,but after seeing the price,we decided not to play anymore.SOoo EXPENSIVE! Play 1 game has to spend at least RM4,but the facilitates do not worth that much.hahaha.
later,the circus there had a show,the entry fee is Rm9 per person.There are 3 tigers and some other animals.hahaha.They did not believe the small place can fit so many animals,and ridicuoled that those are not tiger,but big cats... -_-!!! hahaha.so again,we din go for it.hahaha
and then,1 more...we decided to ride the 4 wheels bicycle then.Can you guess how much is the rental???
hahaha.RM39 for 45minutes! hahaha.then,we gave up oso.so costful.hahaha.We are not stingy,but just dont want to spend our money like that.hahaha.

After that,we went back to Singapore again.The custom servicer is fierce,that woman! hahaha.
By the way,I was getting a new jacket for myself.hahaha.my dream fur jacket.hahaha.
maybe will visit to JB again,but still cant be sure what is the date.hehehe.wonderin where are all my pic? hahaha.i havent upload yet.hahaha.wait ah...
I gonna change my job,hehehe.wat wil it be the next? hahaha.Guess...
have a nice day
good luck

Visit to East Coast area in Singapore and Watching Avatar in Midnight

Today is 01.01.2010,my counsin-in-law did not work and he brought us to East coast area to ride the bicycle.hahaha.This is my 1st experience to ride bicycle at beach,and the bicycle is double seated.wahahaha.
We went there quite early,about 3 like tat,and the sun is still very strong,hehehe,luckily there is lots of trees to shade us.wahahaha.
i am with my bicycle.hehehe,cool.hahaha.very nice to ride there.
This was taken at one of the place there.a castle,but cant go in,hehehe

after That,we went to play game.hehehe,the game place is small(smaller than kch star)hahaha,but it is cleaner,of course,hahaha.we spent about an hour here,playing nothin actually,cause really few things to play with.hahaha
actually wanna play this de,but the machine spoil!!! hahaha,cant "box" ppl.hehehe

Later in the evening,I went to Bugis and Chinatown wiith Chai Yun.hahaha.I bought a shirt there.Tomorrow she is going back to Kuching,hehehe.wish her has a nice and safe flight.
We went wacthing movie at night,hahaha.Almost all of my housemate go(cousins la).hahaha.Watched Avatar 3D for 12.30am,quite nice but somehow the effect is too excessive,wahahaha,however it was nice...
_recommended_
hahaha.then we went to McDonald to eat.hahaha,i ate the wrinkled potato chips.hahaha.Nice...
The sky is turnin dawn now,hehehe,I am going to sleep.nite.
have a nice day.
good luck.

welcome to 2010

2010 is officially coming.hahaha.Everyone is one year old older.wahahaha.nice~should be more mature.
Wish everyone is healthy,wealthy and happy every day,minute and even second! hehehe.
Wish I can get a better experience in my studies,work and daily life.
Wish the dreams of ours will all come true in this new year.
Wish you all the best.
jia you.
and...
welcome to 2010.