telling the TRUTH

Everyone seems to know that I was going for a shooting,just I am the one who is still in the drum,dont know they knew it.I thought I can rely on the people i told to not tell anyone,but the fact is,cant.what other say is true,"once a secret is shared,it is no more a secret." Anyway,I cant do anything now,hahaha,beside telling the truth.
Just now called my parents,my papa asked me if I had to pay for the shooting(cause i dint tell him i have to pay for the shooting first before i can get advertisement to do),I told him the truth and said YES,and told him not to worry about me because I planned everything,if he still cant trust this,I wont go back if I cant earn the money back._SILENT_hahaha,then,of course,as a loving papa,he agreed with me and support me.hahaha
Actually I already suspected if everybody knows about this matter,because that day I called my sister,and she said,"are you sure u don owe khong money anymore?" Hahaha,i lied to her,but from there I knew something was wrong...somebody spreaded the news,and I know who is that person.hahaha.
I am not saying that keep this secret and make it like a mysterious for others,the matter is i dont like other to think I am not realistic,and keep to think of famous or anything else,and dont want other has chance to gossiping me or talk something bad about me.I just DONT LIKE IT!this doesnt matter for me,because I am not at home,but how about my parents? Especially my mama,she cares alot what people say about us.I dont want to upset her.Anyway,my lie since to break out~ hahaha.I feel a glimpse of relief,for sure,cause no need to carry the cant-tell-burden everyday,and have to think how to lie so they will not worry.It is HARD!!!arrrhhh~ finally,I dont need to suffer anymore,hahaha
Since everyone knew already,then I can post my photos up in facebook and talk about this matter freely.hahaha.By the way,I am stil who I am,the one with the biggest smile that will not fade.hahaha
good luck.
have a nice day.

the photos...

As some of you already knew,I went for a shooting for I Modals.I was actually curious how I gonna look like as I dont think I will look nice with those make up...hmm.Anyway,it had been taken and I took 10styles!!!OMG,used my 6hours.hahaha.As I have said,whenever there is excitement,there is disappointment.

actually I am quite disappointed with the effect,because the photos,for me,really not very nice,hahaha.anyway,alot of people request to have a look,so I just upload 2 pictures in each styles to here.What I gonna do then? I cant change anything,cant blame anyone,and cant do anything to make this more perfect...Uuuhhhuuuhhh~ actually I right face is nicer than left face la,but the photograher kept taking photos by my left face.hahaha.anyway,I have to accept this!!!

ok now,let me introduce the pictures to you guys~

this 2 pictures are of course,SPORT.(i am satisfied with sports theme)

this 2 are...CASUAL.look fat ho?

these are FORMAL wears.(i like this also,but I cant post it to my profile,cz it is too formal!)

these are,for sure,WEDDING GOWN!(actually quite upset,cause I thought this style wil be the Nicest!!!arrrhhh~)

these are ELEGANT style i think.can see my tummy lar~hahaha

this 2 are PARTY style.(quite ok,just dont like my eyes...look dull and moodless,by the way,i look slim,rite?wahahaha)

erm...dont really know what style is this,maybe SWEET gua~see my front hair,hahaha,stupid~)

this is COOL style.hahaha.for me,it is like Da Jie Da style.hahaha.sat leh~see my make up so nong~OMG~

this is...erm,SEXY style ma?hahhaa.not sure.(oi,da ge ge,siao jie jie sexy ma?wahahaha.see i so slim~)

and the last style! HAWAII! hahaha...see my dress,and my hair pin,wahahhaha.i like my skin tone in this style.hahaha

Anyway,not saying that I dont like the photos,just somehow my eyes look WEIRD...and some of the styles,my hair also did not set well.By the way,maybe is my own problem,because the stylist is quite profesional~
Now,just waiting for the advertisement to do! hahaha,waiting for their call.but dont know if there is any company that will want me to do the ad for them or not since my photos not very nice.hahaha.
hahaha,any comments?leave it to me.Thanks.
Have a nice day.
good luck.

新一年，新开始……

今年过年十拿九稳是回不到寺巫外婆家过年了，就连团圆饭也应该不能像以往过年般会外婆家吃了。原因很简单---机票太贵，申请不到leave.
不过无所谓，第一年过年没有在家和家人一起度过，是个特别及不一样的新年。哈哈哈。也许会工作，也许会休息（没有双倍薪水的话），也许会到小叔家或二姑家过年，一切都还没确定。

哈哈哈。今年真的和以往不同，过年过后也是一样。我的生活在毕业后真的不一样了，脱胎换骨，从天换成地。我不晓得这样的改变是否正确，可是我不会虚度我的时间去浪费在无谓的事情及繁冗的旧事情上，更不甘心我的生活就这么平平淡淡，毫无多余的色彩与空间。我承认我是个贪新鲜的人，但是我不会三分钟热度，一旦做了就会坚持，就算在别人眼里我是多么的不可能完成这个任务。我也不否认，我是好强的。
我的生活可以多姿多彩，但我必须付上代价，我知道，没有付出，哪里会有收获呢？相信所有人都明白这个道理。

_________代价 VS 得到_____________

第一：到新加坡来

代价：与家人分开，第一次以个人远距离离家，被跳蚤欺负（哈哈哈）
得到：经验，旅行，各国朋友，生活上的琐碎事，更独立，嗯……钱？（还不是很清楚是否能赚很多,hahaha)

第二：当服务员

代价：每天要走很长的路到达工作地点
得到：工钱（哈哈哈），朋友，厨房的事宜，学会做三文治/pizza，喝到很多免费的汤，顺便走路减肥~哈哈哈，

第三：参加imodals

代价：被骂，被嘲讽，被笑，不被看好……还要借钱拍portfolio（贵~）
得到：经验，美美的照片，钱（也许吧~很多人都不看好会赚钱），认识帅哥美女？哈哈哈。

第四：过年工作
代价：无法回家和大家吃团圆饭过年，没红包拿，没年过
得到：工钱咯~

还有什么呢？我也不懂了。我只知道只要肯努力，肯争取，肯付出，肯加把劲，不放弃，任何事情都能成功的。每件事都有它的好坏，只是看你怎么去面对它、拿捏它……

我相信我自己，相信周遭的人会给我鼓励与安慰，就算我做的是错的决定，就算他们是多么的不喜欢我做的事。因为爱我，所以他们甘愿忍受我的叛逆。

因为我相信，所以一切都有可能发生；
因为我相信，所以有奇迹。
愿大家幸福快乐……
加油~