decision after several thoughts

After long discussions with friends and thoughts,I had finally made up my mind on where am I going to study.
Before this,I was quite confused and I really couldnt decide where should I go,there is just too much for me to think and relate to.
My papa asked me to go back to Kuching to study in my last call to them,as there are alot of reasons to say.hahaha.
Part of the reasons are:
1.my friends and family are all there,and as if I am studying there,I will not have to miss them and I can meet them whenever I want.hahaha.
2.i can save alot of expenses as I do not have to pay for the house or room rental,catering fees,transport fee and even air ticket!hahaha...bla bla bla...can save so much as all my expenses will be offered by my parents.hahaha
3.If I study in Kuching,I can still learn some of my interests that I did not realised when I was in secondary school,like I can learn dancing,knitting,swimming,etc,as I am now have money to support myself to do that without burden my parents.
4. I can learn driving and get my liscence!hahaha,so hopefully you can see I drive soon.
5.If I am in Kuching then I can continue to get medicine from my doctor without have to ask my parents to post it to me or by other means.who knows,I will be cured one day.hahaha
6.I also can find some part time job at Kuching too as I am familiar with the place so I wont have to crack into the new environment and adapt to it.hahaha
7. xxx ( i think still have some more but I cant remember it)hehehe
see,there are so many reasons I should stay home!hahaha
there are only 2 things I can think of about the "disavantage" if I live in Kuching,hahaha
1. I cannot continue with my modeling job as it is very limited in sarawak but if I stay in kl there are much more choices on the jobs;
2.i cant get any experience on living in other place >.<
hahaha.so,PROs are more than CONs.

So,as I think that is possible for me to go back to study,I am now narrowing my choices to either going to INTI college or SEGI college in Kuching.
For INTI college,I will choose the A-Level program before I persue to Psychology course,the intake is july;
for SEGI college,I will choose the American Degree Program in Psychology intake in august,as I can still transfer to other university and whats more,I can even go to Australia,my dream place! hahaha.
So,where am I going?mostly SEGI liao~hehehe.
but what dismay me is not much people know about the ADP,though it is now beginning to rapid grow among the universities in Malaysia.By the way,I think I can do it! hehehe.so,wish me luck yea!hahaha
this is the link on what am I going to study,interested?go and have a look then.hahaha
http://www.segi.edu.my/campus/scs/programmes.htm
for this,I would like to show my appreciation to some of my friends who helped me alot:
1.Shirlene Liew for helping me to look for the info of INTI;
2.Kelly Wong for clearing my doubts during my miserable moment;
3.Shane Ten for giving me info on the ADP and lots of useful informations;
4.Winnie Lim who always help me when I said I want to study in HELP,(really feel sorry for putting her "aeroplane" at last)
5.there are much more who help in minor like Jane,Ching foong and Da Ge Ge.
thanks to all of you.hehehe
THANK YOU VERY  MUCH
thats all from me for now,I really have think it twice and wish I can really get what I want.
Good luck to all.
gambate!

you are nice,but you are not Mine ...

Once
u treated me nice
i cut my finger
terrified by the worm,
it was u
doing the rest of things for me;

Once
i was always not tall enough to reach the rack,
it was u
who put down all the things in hands
and got the tub I needed for me;
i shall never forget
your pretended-blaming-expression
when the water dipped out from the tub
and wet your shirt
the sincere and kiddy expression
that warmed my heart;

once
i was stubborn;
it was you
fighting with me
by using our eyes
---> o.O vs O.o "
maybe that was the moment
I was electrocuted by you
it was so funny
when I thinking of this
but it was you
who make me think I worth a live
because I still can fight;

once
i was scalded by the boiling soup,
it was you
first to ridicuole me
as in I was kidding
but after seeing the painfulness in my eyes
u were more to caring
and hold my hands
to see the scald;
I would never forget that moment
A beloved man showing his caring
though I am not his love...

once
i was broken heart
it was you
throwing my love
into pieces
with your silentness
and the explaination in your eyes;

once
i was thinking,
it was you
who make me felt love and loved
but it was just my imagination;
perhaps
it was me
growing all the doubtness
that pushing you furthur from me
until losing all the happiness we used to have;
until the awkward feeling filled the atmosphere around us;
it was u
who woke me up
that i am not suitable to love
but loved;

there are always some memories between us
that I shall not forget
for the rest of my life
the valuable treasure
which keeps inside my secret closet
forever...
I will always rememeber
there was a guy,
who ever brighten my day with a simple "bye bye";

the guy,
who is nice,
but not MINE...

Its ok I didnt get it O:)

The day seems longer than usual,I couldn't wait for anymore minute longer,yet,I told myself not to panic and don't put on so much of hope on it.
The moment arrived and I was panicked when I couldn't log in to view my status.hahaha.After couple of times of trying,guess what?
I DIDN'T GET IT!
Feeling little of dismay and disappointed,why? Why I didn't get it? I don't know.I have done my best in my exam,interview,but what I got is "tidak dapat menawarkan"!
Anyway,there are lots of friends that did not get this too,so,I don't mind anymore! I understand clearly how they picked,what to do,this is MALAYSIA!
By the way,I am quite confuse where to study the next.After a long stay in Singapore,I felt like not going anywhere else to study but in my own hometown,with all my friends and family over there.But then,I also felt like going to other places to study as what I dreamt and to gain more experience.
Though there are lots of university for me to pick,I still don't know where to go.
last time,my first wish is to go Monash University,who knows they doesn't give full scholarship,so--->give up.
now,I am considering
1.HELP UNIVERSITY COLLEGE for the Psychology course at august intake(but just now went to research and read that it is quite expensive and hard to graduate,is that true?)hahaha
2.SEGI COLLEGE,Sarawak for the American Degree transfer Program,which I can study at Kuching for 4 years or I can choose to go other place to pursue my studies!
3.UCSI kl for the september intake for foundation in psychology.
4.SUNWAY in KL for the psychology program...
hmm,if I have to study in KL and I have to rent a room or house there o,reluctant to do so because I have to pay!hahaha,I want to save all my money la.anyway,if I study in KL and there will be a chance for me to be more independent though I have to make new friends there and miss old friends here,and it will be a better opportunity for me to find some part time job for myself to gain more experiences! hahaha
My mama said if I really go to KL and maybe can ask my papa to go with me and find room for me first,hahaha.It is ok I did not get it,I know there will be more pathways for me.hahaha
wow! I think alot.
And I think more! hahaha.
should I change my dream course to other like biomedic or biology or just simply the business or science?
oww!hahaha,I dont know...
hmm.what to do now? I dont know la! hahaha.so lazy to think anymore.Just wait for the matric reappealing result tomorrow and see how first.hahaha.all the best luck to all my friends! don't give up o~
good luck
gambate.