不懂自己在说什么，就像不懂为什么会爱你一样。

一语道破你的思想。很难过的，你的高兴换来了我的哀伤。过后你是怎样的解释，其实第一句就已足够证明你在想什么了。只是，很悲哀的，让你失望了。
真的很感激你的不小心，也很感谢你并没有给我期待，让我继续等待。
曾经想过，如果不爱你，我的世界会不同吗？只不过少了个人住在心里吧~所以，无所谓了！
是啊！如果我没有爱上你，也许那该有多好呢~
我不会恨你，这是真的。伤心我一个人就够了，为什么还要把你拖下水呢？没必要。你有你的自由和快乐。
其实知道自己真的很傻。为什么会为了你而不顾这个不管那个呢？好好笑。自己都变得不像自己，不像自己喜欢的那个自己。就连自己也不喜欢这样的自己，哪还有理由要你来喜欢这样的自己呢？
只是，每次看见你有困难，每次看见你因为某些事烦恼，就会情不自禁的想帮你。
真的很可悲~就连最后的那份矜持，好像都遗失了。那我还有什么值得你去留恋的呢？
没有。
我并不介意在你最困难的时候才出现；在你开心的时候消失。毕竟，爱在困苦中更能让我知道，我曾爱你，曾为了你的奋斗而心疼。这是我爱你所能给的。谁会知道，等到有一天我不爱你了，我就不会为了你而熬夜，彻夜等待着你的信息……
我会继续爱你吗？这样下去，我的自尊还会犹存吗？感情里的未知数往往让人烦恼不已，但它就是充满了未知数。让我想爱，却又不敢爱。
痛苦吗？其实是不会的。毕竟，我喜欢的是你，而不是和你在一起。所以，有什么好痛苦的呢？痛苦只是自讨苦吃吧~

多么希望我是只能带领你飞向幸福天空的风筝，而不是被你绑住的风筝。
谢谢你曾让我知道，我有能力帮助你，就算只是那么的一丁点，也很满足了~
也许，在未来的日子里，你会恨我的爱？我不晓得。
朋友急着介绍朋友给我认识，一直安排时间。其实心里是很感激的，纵使我心里依然有个你。
当然，身边都会有‘艳遇’的时候，只是，自己都不想去捉住，而把它放掉了。
我没有在等你，只是想处在原地徘徊，等待着另一个人出现把我牵走。
也许，我是想把心冰封，等待另一个人为我热化？
我不知道。
在爱里兜兜转转了那么久，其实已经看开了，淡化一点，人就漂亮一些。简简单单就能很幸福。
现在的我还没有那个能力去真正的于任何一个人携手相伴，即使有时候真的希望身边有个人陪伴着。我不能。
我不懂自己罗罗嗦嗦到底在说什么，就像，我不懂为什么我会爱上你一样。
会继续爱下去吗？顺其自然吧~
你呢？会怎样？
但愿你幸福就好~

你不知道，其实……

你不知道
其实想对你说的话不多，

只要几句就能表达我的心声，

可是我连一句都没有告诉你。

你不知道

其实并不想放开你，

可是我的爱却成了你的负担。

其实很想一直爱着你，

让你知道我的真心，

可是却又不想空等待。

你不知道

其实很想明白你在想什么，

可是却无法开口问你。

其实很想很想你，

可是却不知道有什么理由

可以如此告诉你。

你不知道

其实很想了解你，

却不晓得你是否愿意让我这么做。

其实孤单寂寞，

很想有你的陪伴，

可是你却不能在身边。

你不知道

其实不想记得你，

可是脑海全都是你。

其实很想和你在一起，

可是你心中却没有我。

你不知道

其实伤心难过吃醋

可是却没有借口心疼你的心疼，

其实很想代替你的她，

可是却真的明白无法实现。

你不知道

其实真的很爱很爱你，

却只能藏在心里。

They Never Blame, because they LOVE me...

I am the trouble one
since I was young
sickness came one by one
attacking my body
attacking their soul and energy
disappearing their money and time
but they never blame
because they love me.

I am the trouble one
even it is now
sickness still with me
troubles still attaching with me
and I with my troubles attaching with them
but they never blame
because they love me.

I am the trouble one
hardly recognize places
having them to send me here and there
early in the morning
and even late at night
just to hand in assignment for me
without counting the distance
from east to west
from west to east
but they never blame
because they love me.

I am the trouble one
having a lot of activities
wasting their petrol
disrupt their time
disturb their routines
but they never blame
because they love me.

I am the trouble one
even on the dining table
pick and choose
bitter food I don't touch
fish without serve I don't eat
seafood on the table I skip
there must be a dish for me
but they never blame
because they love me.

I am the trouble one
having many hobbies
dancing reading and cooking
they even buy me ingredients
bring me suggestions
be my white rats
but they never blame
because they love me

I am the trouble one
yet
they care for me more than other siblings
my sister keep complaining how unfair is this
my sister keep blaming them for this
but they never blame
because they love me.

I am the trouble one
as my careless can kill me
bringing heart attack to my parents
when I got my IC for SPM
I hold it for 3 days
and missed it for 3 times
and they kept bla bla blaING
while handing the IC to me reluctantly
but they never blame
because they love me

I am the trouble one
never touch detergent water
never wash the dish and plate
throwing the chores to sisters
and they are always willing to help
without I asking them to do so
they never receive any good thing from me
but they never blame
because they love me

I am the trouble one
not only for my family
but my friends as well
they know me well
understand my weaknesses
they hold me while passing the road
they cover me when the grass cutting machine is there
they do not ask me to tie up a rubber
instead, untie it for me
they know what I want
they know what I think
they know my weaknesses
but they never blame
because they love me.

I have so many people who love me in this world,
without the love from a boy friend,
I am still loved by them
I am still loving them
they want nothing from me
except the smile on my face.
I LOVE YOU as much as You love me.
the love to you will never fade
and it will certainly last forever.
Thank You for being there for me.
I am who I am today
because of YOU.