13 March>>>20th birthday ^^

13rd March 2011, I am officially 20 years old! One more year to get my key! lalala Happy. The day before my birthday there were already some friends wishing me. Seems like everyone wanted to be the first. hahaha. I received more than 130 wishes from facebook and through sms. Some of them were really sincere that they set alarm to wake up just to wish me a happy birthday!!! * TOUCH... hahaha. thanks wor Tao Hong !!! And 3 Mushroom! sent so many cute pic for me!!! hahaha.(if you happen to read this post, I want to say a thousand thank you to you!) hahaha. and many more! THANK YOU FOR YOUR WISHES!

That is great and my pleasure to meet you all in my life. Shirlene ah ma! thanks wor^^ hehehe yea thats my honor to know all of you and formed a group!

3gu6po forever!
This year, though I did not have a very big feast for my celebration, I had ordered a cake from my friend, Christopher! hahaha really paiseh troubled him a lot hahaha. Thanks yea^^ it is nice!!! hahaha I loved it so much...yer~~~ hahaha
after that we went out to Hijau to lim teh. hehehe. we chatted so much at there. hahaha funny. hmmm. and I met primary teacher too at Green Heights Mall, nice chatting with her! hahaha
then today, I went to college and entered to wrong class! hahaha. Luckily were my friends having replacement class. My new sisters, Allister, Natasha and Suk Moi presented me a gift, it was nicely wrapped, and I felt reluctant to open it. hahaha. It was a book!
Question Marks of 20!
hahaha. they were really pro! Don't know where on earth they can find this book! hahaha. and it was written by the author which I admire! hahaha... the writer for "13 Determine your Future!" hahaha. Nice! thanks alot dear dear dear!!! yer~~~~ Love you all! :* wish you are able to give me the 30's Question Marks, 40's Question Marks as well when I reach that age! hahaha.
here are some pic to share^^

some cousins^^

my cake, made my Christopher sifu^^

 me and my cake!

Actually when I made wishes, I only made 3, but then, suddenly my cousin, Min Min shouted beside me, 'make a wish you faster get a boy friend." errrppppp~ I forgot this! hahaha. then faster made one more wish before I opened my eyes. hehehe.

 tziang tziang tziang tziang! this is the book from my dears!!! hahaha

well. my life is meaningful, as I always mentioned, because of you! thank you very much!

love you all! Muakz!

have a nice day

gambate!

天气热得我头昏脑胀
喉咙干涩想把整个世界的水都喝光~
haiz~ 热天气让我更加暴躁
请原谅
请别介怀
如果你遇到这样的我
我有我的理由和情绪

因为总是有这样的人
在你心里踏了两脚
在你还没有醒过来
又离开了
那种感觉真的很不好受。

恨自己狠不下心肠，
才会如此的懦弱
如此的不被重视
也许这样
才知道你是否用心
直到你腻了，
就不再回答了
或许我不该把我所想要的一切
假想在你身上
是我的错吧
对不起
或许
我真不该这样了
总是糟蹋别人对我的好

我要变了~
停止我的霸道
这样对我最有利吧~
忍！！！ >,<

大家好好照顾自己哦~
H1N1 又回来了~

好，不好，都是种烦恼

每次。。。
每次…………
我都是被疼惜的那个~
为什么呢？我也不懂哦~
只是觉得，身边的人都很包容我，很爱我，很宠我。
我真的很感动，但也很怕。
感动，是因为有人会因为我的快乐而快乐，悲伤而悲伤；
怕的是，他们只是过客，然后会一个一个头也不回的离开。
我不是怕寂寞，只是，没有人疼惜的日记是怎样的？
会很孤单吧？我不晓得……

有时候，会怀疑别人为什么对自己那么好~
自己不是特别出色，也没有很出众，更没有利用价值。
顾虑得太多，反而显得自己很情绪化。
从小就被教育说，人际是最难懂的，所以也是自己最不在行，最担心受伤的地方。没有安全感如果真的戴上安全帽就能了事，那我一定准备很多顶预备。可是现实告诉我，那并不能。
太保护自己了，反而把自己上了锁，变成榴莲，刺得别人满身伤，不让人靠近。
也许真的要跌过伤过才会懂得真正的保护自己吧~

但是，大多时候，每当遇见对我好的人，我都会一头栽下去，享受着被人宠爱被人重视的感觉。所以，每每都会把自己当作是公主，然后把对我好的人欺负。把别人弄得遍体鳞伤,自己却不见的很好受~真是自作孽。
每当夜深人静的时候我都会想，你们何时会离开?我要如何适应？我不需要保护，但是我没有想象中那么勇敢。我只是会努力不哭，其他的，是伪装。所以，不要用你所认为对的假象在我身上，我不一样。
我霸道，也自私。是我的，别人就不可以拥有。我坚持、固执了太久，却没有人愿意打破这面冰块，我在里面都快冻僵了，却还是等不到救兵……
我的坚持有错吗？固执就了也累了。倘若没有依靠，我会是我自己的依靠，也知道我是最好的依赖。所以也没差啦~习惯就好^^
每个人都渴望爱情，但是当它来临时，却又怕接到的是刺猬，而不是皮球~
希望我接到的，不会是手榴弹……
如果你没有打算要留下来，那请你别停下来，遗留下更多伤害……

我渴望的，只是……
安定和永恒。

我不需要奢华，
更不需要太多的朋友家人。
只要他们都还在我身边，
我就感到很窝心，很幸福了。
我的要求真的很简单，
只要我爱的人都在我身边，
我就满足了。

谢谢你们一直都在我身边……
我爱你们。