I thought...

I thought
you are the shaded tree under the sun;
I thought
you are the umbrella in the raining day;
I thought
you are the jacket in the wind;
I thought
you are the fire in the winter;

I thought
you understand
what i want to do and to be;

I thought
you will support
what ever decision I made;

I thought
you are the one
who help to find my dream in my losing path;

I thought
you are always the people
whom give me strength to continue;

I thought
you will stand by my side
when other doubts my judgement;

I thought
you are different from others on
how they think and view me;

I thought
you are not the type
which follow the traditional trend blindly;

I thought
you would not ask
why am I doing this as you understand;

I thought
you will give me protection
when others disagree with my actions and decisions;

I thought
you are the one
to give me the power to move on
when I have been tumbled down
by those failures and harmful gossipings

I thought
you are different from other,
as
I thought you understand
what your beloved girl wants
and what she keens to be...

I thought
there is always a warm place
for me in your heart
no matter how old I am

I thought,
I thought...
everything is just a THOUGHT?
and it did not come true..
it is just a piece of THOUGHT of MINE!

 It seems
I have to find a place to shed
a shell to protect myself from
all the disappointments that you given
so i can always believe that
you still love me

I dont get it...
why cant you understand,
i hate it
when you followed what they said;
as in you are not believing in my decision
and rather to trust them
those traditional of believings
it wont be succeeded
as we are given the minor opportunity

I will prove it to you
and to those who do not trust me
I can do it.

please remember,
your girl is getting bigger and stronger
yet,
she still need your love and supports
in order to success in her life

And,
please dont leave her alone
when she did mistakes and fall down
because
her stubborn
is heritating you...

This can simply prove that:
you are my papa,
I am your daughter...
our relationship will never end,
eventhough there is different ideas between us...
I still love you as i always do.

哀悼

直到这一刻

我还是无法相信
期待着明天的你

昨天却悄悄走了

讶异、晴天霹雳……

说不出那种遗憾……

我拼命告诉自己

那是骗人的

所以一直想打探消息

所以一直上网照报纸资料
希望没有看到你的新闻
希望……她告诉我的
不过是恶作剧罢了~

我不要相信……


我们一起
渡过了多少的日子
在那漫漫长夜里
我们倾诉了多少的心声
你总是支持我的想法

虽然未曾见面
却有一种友谊联系在彼此心中
我曾笑你
总是感情用事
总是对自己不好
虽然知道你爱的深、伤的深；

我们都是双鱼座，
你说的；
所以感情细腻，
伤得容易……
我却不晓得，
你走得那么容易……

你说：“路，会一直走下去。”
走下去？
你到哪去了？
这里有好多爱你的人，
你却得到了上天的爱戴，
离开我们……

我还能看见你那帅帅装酷的照片吗？
我还能念到你那感伤思念的部落吗？
你会化成星星，
在天上看着我们吗？
当我想要倾诉的时候，
你听得见吗？
你会托梦给我
告诉我你好不好吗？

我还是不想相信
不愿相信
你真的走了……

后年的我
是现在的你
到时我会在哪？
在做些什么？
那时你又在哪？
做些什么？
我真的不敢想象
你是怎么走的……
是静静的，无痛无息的
还是折磨得、痛苦的……
若这是真的
我希望，“你只是一下下子走了……"
而不是饱受痛苦与折磨……

我真的好难过
当我看到你写的文章时
我真的很激动
你是那么的期盼未来
却等不到明天

 “我不想那么快死，

因为究竟我还有很长的路要走，
身边还有重要的人等着我。。
我爱的人，
爱我的人。。
要是真有一天死去。。
我不敢想。。
但却要在称我还活着时说。。
我很爱很爱你们。。
我要好好珍惜这份爱。。
不要等失去了才失望。。”

你说的，
但你却走了，
悄悄地……

愿你在天国能幸福快乐，
等到几十年后的某年某月某日，
我们在那里相会
不可以忘记我哦！

我会一直想念你、纪念你……

静静的，
我在这里，
为你哀悼……
我爱你，哥哥。
在另一个国度，
记得要好好照顾自己！
不必挂念我们，
我们会好好的生活。

永别了，蔡承圣……