I thought...

I thought
you are the shaded tree under the sun;
I thought
you are the umbrella in the raining day;
I thought
you are the jacket in the wind;
I thought
you are the fire in the winter;

I thought
you understand
what i want to do and to be;

I thought
you will support
what ever decision I made;

I thought
you are the one
who help to find my dream in my losing path;

I thought
you are always the people
whom give me strength to continue;

I thought
you will stand by my side
when other doubts my judgement;

I thought
you are different from others on
how they think and view me;

I thought
you are not the type
which follow the traditional trend blindly;

I thought
you would not ask
why am I doing this as you understand;

I thought
you will give me protection
when others disagree with my actions and decisions;

I thought
you are the one
to give me the power to move on
when I have been tumbled down
by those failures and harmful gossipings

I thought
you are different from other,
as
I thought you understand
what your beloved girl wants
and what she keens to be...

I thought
there is always a warm place
for me in your heart
no matter how old I am

I thought,
I thought...
everything is just a THOUGHT?
and it did not come true..
it is just a piece of THOUGHT of MINE!

 It seems
I have to find a place to shed
a shell to protect myself from
all the disappointments that you given
so i can always believe that
you still love me

I dont get it...
why cant you understand,
i hate it
when you followed what they said;
as in you are not believing in my decision
and rather to trust them
those traditional of believings
it wont be succeeded
as we are given the minor opportunity

I will prove it to you
and to those who do not trust me
I can do it.

please remember,
your girl is getting bigger and stronger
yet,
she still need your love and supports
in order to success in her life

And,
please dont leave her alone
when she did mistakes and fall down
because
her stubborn
is heritating you...

This can simply prove that:
you are my papa,
I am your daughter...
our relationship will never end,
eventhough there is different ideas between us...
I still love you as i always do.